It wasn't your fault
to hurt yourself
the world became heavy
your bad dreams became reality,
you were crushed of what you deserved
they allowed it to hit you
you cried for what seemed
like forever
loud-
your heart breaking with every second
you close your eyes
but the one who promised to protect you
is all you see,
you want to block it all out
but your mother didn't even ask you
what was wrong when you sobbed past her
you turn to bad things,
because you don't care
14's the maximum
'don't take more than that'
but you took 25
because you don't care
how long will you let them
control your life,
why did you let yourself
fall for him,
he doesn't know
they don't know
how much you hurt
all alone
your pain is a self-prophecy,
maybe the cry of a broken heart you abandoned
now you feel how he felt
don't ask her what happened
it's okay-
she's just your daughter
it's only happened twice,
but they created this drama
it's only happened twice
but it was enough to hurt yourself just so that
it could end
the real truth
they don't know-
why don't you tell them?
they wouldn't understand
what's the point
you took pills
you threw up
you spat blood
they won't take you to a hospital
it'll all come back on you
just like it always has
you've never done it before
it's driving you mad
your eyesight's blurry, your mind is dizzy, your legs are shaking
get some control over yourself
your head is throbbing
your heart is breaking
maybe a tablet would help?
another two packets of eight in your pocket
take it
you could die
you know that
but will it matter to anyone?
you can only think of one person
but he is no longer yours
no one else seems to be bothered that you're here
crying all alone
die if you want to
be assured someone loved you once
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By no means am I encouraging any form of self harm or suicidal behaviour. Please don't do anything like that to yourself because you are so beautiful and you are yet to experience the best. Difficulties can be overcome with the right mindset, prayers and love. Give love to yourself because God loves you and that's why he has chosen to put you through this test. The greatest people are always tested with the hardest battles first, before the reward. Believe that you will overcome all hardships with faith and you will. Someone always loves you whether they are in your present or future, someone is grateful to have you and someone else wants someone just like you. Be strong, try and be positive, give room to hope and please don't hurt yourself
p.s. always tell the people you love, you love them and you care about them. if you are worried for them, be there for them as a listening ear and share your pearls of wisdom to keep them going x
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The Things I Never Said [To You] | inksmoker
PoetryA Composition Of Thoughts, Feelings and Rants I never expressed out loud *** "Poetry is what happens, when you feel like nothing else can" Started in 2016, still updating till present ~~~~~...