i'm not worthy of this religion
how the fuck can i be?
i don't believe in your plan
i don't believe in a better tomorrow-
it's not that i don't want to
it's just that i can't
i've been constantly lied to,
constantly thrown aside,
there isn't no good outcome to this
i'm not worthy of this religion when i can't even force myself
to be positive about a new light -
where is the damn light?
how can i fucking see it when my whole life was spent in darkness
is this your plan?
is this my better tomorrow?
i'm not fucking worthy of this religion
not when i can't believe you're watching
all of this and i'm still here
crying the same old fucking song
i want to believe
it's not that i don't want to
but it's so hard to smile for tomorrow
without it turning into a frown
it's so hard to think something good is going to come
after all of this shit
will i even be alive till then?
no, how the fuck can i be alive till then??
i don't want a fucking future
if this is my present,
i don't want a future like this-
i want to live
be happy
and be able to live those moments where i pray to you because I AM happy
not only when i'm feeling fucking terrible
they don't listen to anything i say
it's always my fault,
they don't need to say it
because they always fucking prove it to me
i'm not worthy of this religion,
how the fuck can i be?
i don't believe in your plan
i don't believe in a better tomorrow
it's not that i don't want to
it's just that i've been wronged so many times
i don't know how to keep believing anymore
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The Things I Never Said [To You] | inksmoker
PoetryA Composition Of Thoughts, Feelings and Rants I never expressed out loud *** "Poetry is what happens, when you feel like nothing else can" Started in 2016, still updating till present ~~~~~...