The Things I Never Said [To You] | inksmoker

16/08/23

pata nahi tumhare liye kya mehsus karti hun

pehle tumhe dekhna chahti thi

tumse milna chahti thi

tumhare ghar tak aana chahti thi

phir tumhari baaten bohot yaad aati thi

tumse aur baat karna chahti thi

har baat tumse dheere dheere karna chahti thi

tumhare saath muskurane chahti thi

tumhare saath dukh baatna chahti thi

humara saath behtar lagne laga tha

phir uska khyaal jab aata tha

unchai se jaise neeche ghir jaati thi

toote hue khaab yaad aajate te

bikhra hua dil saamne aajata tha

kahin, dil har soch ko dhur karta raha

ab dhur rehne ki aadat hone lagi

tumhare ghar ka na sochun, toh hi behtar

tumhe na dekhun toh behtar

tumse koi baat na ho toh behtar

dhur rahen... toh shayad behtar

magar jab tumhare khyaal par lamha guzarti hun

toh tumhari yaad ache lagne lagti phirse

I don't know what I feel for you

first I wanted to see you

I wanted to meet you

even come into your house (in marriage)

then I would remember your words

and I would want to converse with you more

talk about everything slowly slowly with you

I wanted to smile with you

and share our pains

being together started to feel like it would be better

then when I would remember him

it would feel like falling from a high place

my broken dreams would come back to the front of my memory

my broken heart would come in front of me

somewhere, my heart started to become distant from every other thought then

now I am used to staying away

I don't think about coming into your home, this is better

I don't think about meeting you, this is better

I don't think about talking with you, this is better

staying away from each other... maybe that is better

but when I allow myself a few moments to think of you

your presence does feel nice