25/01/2019
Dear you,
i'm sorry if it stings to see me happy with people who aren't you,
i'm sorry if it's evident i'm not on the same page as i was anymore
it's just
i've been moving on;
i needed to
i know we haven't talked since a while
i know you might be hurt beyond what i can imagine
and i want you to know things with you WERE good,
you're an amazing person despite how you think of yourself
and you know that this is exactly what i think of you,
but then a time came when those things became too complicated-
We, became too complicated
to the point where i questioned every move
every action, every vocalisation
not yours, but of my own
i wasn't sure how to respond
i wasn't sure what to say and what not to say
i mean sometimes when i said something, i regretted doing so and sometimes i regretted
not doing so
suddenly, i couldn't handle it
our relationships, our friendships, our connections
they all came in the way
it was so complicated, my mind was overwhelmed almost every time
with thoughts i had no control over, things i couldn't understand
i know yours was too but i was the first
who couldn't manage it anymore
so i'm sorry, i let go of the elastic
holding us together
i don't know what you're thinking
would you want me to talk to you?
would you want me to stay away?
do you hate me?
i think i would
i don't want you to hate me though,
regardless of everything, of course i don't
i don't know what you're feeling
are you sad?
are you angry with me?
i thought the step i took was the right one
i was so certain, i so firmly held onto it
but sometimes i question that too
if i hadn't taken that step, would we be here today?
will i see you again?
********
to my friend who taught me what a real best friend was
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