The Unexpected

Chapter 54

Mesut's POV:

Sat in the taxi on my way back home, I breathed out such a loud sigh, as I ran a hand then all through my hair. I was an idiot, a huge idiot, for what I came close to doing. How the hell, if I am honest, could I be so stupid to coming this close to cheating on Scarlett – the woman all I have wanted for years on end, since meeting? If it was not for Sergio then I have to say right now, I am worried and scared as to where things with Natalia and I could have led to. For all I know I could have ended up back at hers, sleeping with her and making the biggest mistake of my life so far. I could not do that to Scarlett, I could not put her through that especially as she is pregnant now, and so for that I am so glad Sergio stopped me from going ahead then.

To be honest with you Sergio really has guided me into the right direction. He has for all of a sudden made me see sense, as to how the way I was treating this situation with Scarlett was only going to lead us both into one direction. That of course being, sooner rather than later I would find myself a single man. Scarlett having left me, and bringing up our baby alone, only with no help off anyone except for herself. Of course, by no means at all, does this make me change my mind on how I feel about becoming a father. I still am not ready, and I still do not know how to act towards it. But, all thanks to Sergio, he has made me see sense, as to how I just need to air my thoughts out to Scarlett, and go through all this with her and by her side.

And that is exactly what I am going to do, I am going to tell Scarlett how I feel, but also too, I will tell her that despite me not being ready for this I cannot change what has happened, so, I will be by Scarlett's and our baby's side no matter what. I am starting my own little family, I should be happy about this. So, if Scarlett and I can get out of this conversation, on the good of it, then, there is no reason for me to believe that in weeks, at the latest, I will be as happy as she is about this situation. I will be as excited to be becoming a parent as she is, so, I hope it will change me for the world of good – becoming a father. As the truth is realising all what I have done to Scarlett has made me realise all how I have a hell of a lot of growing up to do.

"Thanks, and uhm, keep the change." Handing over a handful of notes to the taxi driver then in the front of the car I smiled at him, to which he did also right back at me. And with that, in that moment I pushed my wallet back into my jean pocket, before walking ahead towards of the house. Where upon opening the door, I was greeted with nothing but silence all around, not a single sound could be heard. And from the looks of things, and, from what I can only in a way imagine, Scarlett was probably fast asleep in bed right now. So, deciding to look all for myself, I kicked my shoes off quietly and headed up the stairs. Trying to be as quiet, as I was able to, in order to not wake Scarlett up if she was sleeping. As that would make it all worse.

Soon enough though, and I finally reached the upstairs of the house, all as I carefully opened up the door to mine and Scarlett's bedroom and walked ahead inside. Where, the second all I did so, I notice that Scarlett was in fact asleep. As there she was, cuddled up underneath of the covers, with Rocky in her arms and Balboa laying on the covers by her feet. Not at all, if I am honest, could I help other than to smile widely at the sight. It really was something that I could not help to see which brought a smile to myself, they all looked ever so cute, if I must admit to you now. And all of a sudden, it brought away all the frustration I was once feeling.

Coming back to reality soon though, and I shook my head, knowing how now I was going to have to wait until the morning to sort things out with Scarlett. So with that I proceeded just to get myself undressed out of my clothes and down into nothing but my boxers all before I got myself into bed. Where I could not help other than to wrap my arms around Scarlett, all from behind, once underneath the covers and closing my eyes. It felt so amazing to be all in this sort of position with her again, so comfy and so at ease. And it was to the point of how I enjoyed it so much, to be back like this with her again, that in less than five minutes or so in this position, I soon fell into a deep sleep. A deep sleep which I myself, really did need, also.