Niall Horan Imagines

Pain (Part 2)

Due to high request, here is part 2! Hope you enjoy, x.

~Niall's P.O.V~

It's been a week, a week since I've lost her. I can't believe I did this. I hate myself more and more everyday for what I did to her, and I wish I could tell her I love her one more time.

She was my everything and I don't know why I did what I did, but I just want her back.

Nothing I do will bring her back to me, I lost her for good this time.

Today is the day of her funeral, and I don't know how I'll cope. Her parents have flown in from the US and I don't know what they'll say to me.

This could quite possibly be the hardest day of my life.

~At the Funeral~

It was now time for speeches. I was up next and I couldn't be more nervous. I walk up, and suddenly all eyes are on me. My eyes are red and puffy from all the crying, and I just look like a mess.

"Hi everyone, um, I'm Niall, Y/N's boyfriend. I-I can't believe this is happening and I still can't believe I took part in this." I break down in tears. This is too hard.

"I never knew how hard this was for her but when I found out, my emotions took over and I got angry at her. I don't know why or how I did that but I hate myself more and more everyday." I continue. "I want to apologise to everyone here because I feel at fault and I truly am sorry. I can't forgive myself for what I did, and the guilt will stay with me for the rest of my life. I wish I could see her one more time, to tell her I love her, to tell her I'm sorry, to tell her how much she really means to me. She is my everything and I never got to show her.  Y/N was the most amazing thing in my life, and i'll continue to love her forever." I continue, trying my hardest not to break down again.

Once I finish, I put a rose on her coffin, breaking down even more.

The funeral is over and we are now heading over to the refreshment venue. I haven't talked to Y/N's parents since this happened because I'm too scared, but today, I'll have to.

I find them crying in each other's arm's making me break further. I caused this.

I wait for them to notice me. "Mr and Mrs Y/L/N, please understand me. I never meant for this to happen. I had no idea this was happening, and if I did, I would've helped. I swear. The day previous to what happened, I'd had a stressful day at work and it continued the next day. I took my anger out on her and I don't know why. She did and still does mean everything to me. I'm so sorry. This is all my fa-" They cut me off, embracing me in a hug.

I never expected that, I expected the exact opposite, but they're obviously grieving the same amount as me, if not more right now.

"Niall, it's alright. No one knew this would've happened, and you can't blame it on yourself. We love you, and nothing will change. We know Y/N meant a lot to you too, and we're all in the same boat, mourning the loss of our loved one." They say through tears, hugging me again.

~Back at home~

I've lost her, and I still can't process it. I don't think I could move on from her, ever, as much as she might like me too.

I'll have to live with this guilt forever, meaning I can't possible move on from this.

~70 years later~

"Y/N, baby! I missed you so much!!" I say to her, as we reunite once again.

"I missed you too Ni. I'm so sorry for leaving you. I didn't know what to do and that was my only option." She replies, with an apparent frown on her face.

"No Y/N, its all my fault. I shouldn't have done what I did and I lived the rest of my life with that guilt, but I just couldn't move on. I love you so much, and I'm so glad i can see you again." I say, already in her arms with my tears staining her shirt.

"I still can't believe you didn't move on." She laughed, making me blush like a shy school boy.

"Even if I did, I could never forget about you, Y/N. You meant, and still do mean everything to me, and I hope I proved that to you and you were looking down on me."

"You definitely did Ni, and obviously, you were the main one i looked over." 

"You're my angel Y/N. Let's go find the boys, I haven't seen them for ages." We walk off together to find the boys, hands entwined. I'm so glad to be back with my love, and her hand still fits perfectly into mine.

IT'S DONE! I hope you liked this, and I know this was the worst ending, but I was kind of stuck with what to write, but I hope you guys enjoyed it anyway!

School starts up in 2 days for me, so I'll try and get another imagine up before, but I can't promise anything :( Also, I'll be pretty busy during school, but I'll still try my hardest to write for you all! :)

Also, (sorry :')) thank you guys so much for 7k+ and all the amazing feedback I got on the last part! It means so much to me! <3 Anyways, its 11:59pm here, so I'm going to go to sleep, but i hope you all enjoyed this :))