Love is not new to me. I saw it on dad's eyes when he talks about his wife. I saw it in my mom's eyes when she looks at papa. I saw it in the eyes of those students looking at the love of their life. It's just that I had never experienced it firsthand. To be honest I felt something for Sy before all this Yna fiasco. It may not be love but it's the closest I have to liking someone. But you see pain changes people and I am no exception. After all these fucked up mess I could say all that feelings is like water under the bridge now.
I could forgive him. All of us make wrong choices and besides mistake is a part of being human and I am not perfect either. I have my fair share of mistakes in the past and up until now. I just need some time to sort my feelings up and who knows what I felt for him might just comeback. Because you see you can't tell your heart whom to fall in love. It's free fallin' and you just fall. I even remember how I scolded Avery because of some boy, I even stop talking to her for days. But she loved the guy no matter how wicked he is. Though for now that love thing still seems like a far fetch dream and just superficial experience to me. I still have a lot to deal with, Angelo's death, gangster stuffs and all those killings. And that dreadful truth I had pushed to the deepest part of me, that once in my life I'm an assassin.
"Hoy Blue!" I felt someone nudge my shoulder waking me up from my reverie. I scowled at Zayn which he just replied with a sheepish grin. It's been days since that incident at the cemetery at nandito kami ngayon sa loob ng private room nila. Minsan kasama ko sina Logan, minsan sina Jasmine at minsan ang 5X but I am still not on the speaking term with Sy. We are on this small nods and awkward eye contact kind of thing.
"Bakit?" Singhal ko kaagad dito.
"Kanina pa kita tinatanong kong pupunta ka ba mamaya?" The thing is, today is the last day of school before Christmas break. Yup, time really flies fast. Akalain mo yun lampas 6 months na pala simula ng dumating ako dito sa Pilipinas.
"Why? Anong meron mamaya?" I am still lost. I really don't know what he's talking about.
"Party mamaya sa bahay nina Vince." He answered with his 'duh' tone.
"What? Kailan pa natutong magpaparty si V?" I mean seriously, I can't figure him throwing out a party. The guy is kinda mute or something. Kami lang ata ang kinakausap nya at minsan hindi talaga sya sumasali sa usapan at nakaharap lang sa gadgets nya. "No offense meant to you V but I just can't see you partying hard much more being the host." I said in my defense before I continue eating my food baka kasi ma offend sya sa sinabi ko.
"I don't have choice you know." Mas lalo naman akong naguluhan sa sagot nya.
"Kasi Blue ganito yun, every last day of school before Christmas break nagpapaparty kaming 5X tapos salitan kung kaninong bahay yung venue. It's just that sa bahay nila gaganapin ang party ngayon and he can't say no. Last year it was held at mine."
"Okay..." I said with a drag.
"At bawal kang hindi pumunta." I groaned kasi sasabihin ko pa sanang hindi ako pupunta. What would you expect from high school parties? Booze and hormonal teenagers at mas gugustuhin ko pang makipaglaro nalang kay Jiro besides kakapunta lang namin sa bar last week.
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Azure: The Retired Assassin
Action"I was born to live. Raise to kill. Now I want out." -Azure Adams "Hired Killers. Murderers. Hitman. Reapers. Assassins. These are human species that I loathe the most." -Brice Adriel Sy
