Refresh [Izaya X OC ff]

Chapter 2

Later, I found out that Raira middle school was a lot bigger than my elementary school. Of course, the number of students there couldn't be compared with the students in my elementary school. As soon as I got close to the school gate, I started to panic after seeing the crowd.

God. I regretted letting Mum decided on my school. I could have just chosen a more private school, but that would only cost me more money. Sigh, I wished Azami was by my side. She would hold my hands and calm me down.

My class was in 1-D. And still being a shy person, I avoided any possible contact with my new classmates. I was lucky that no one talked to me throughout the welcoming speech from the principal and on first classes. Now that I think again, did I look menacing at that time?

My introduction to the class went... unwell. I stuttered a lot, although all I had to do was just mentioning my full name. But the process felt like a hell to me. The home teacher made me repeat because my voice sounded too weak. On my way to my desk, people were whispering at me. 

What a day.

Of course, I spent my time alone as well on the lunch break. I was planning to not eat and just sleep, but Mum made me a lunch box so I couldn't just leave it uneaten. 

Eating in the class was a big no when everyone had their fun time eating together except me. I would probably look like a fool. I began to think of every possible peaceful place with no one around. My first choice was the rooftop but it was locked. Why did they lock it?

Eventually, I went to the library, the second place that I could think of. There was a written rule to not bring any food or drink, but I recklessly brought the lunch box inside. I never knew I had a rebellious side. Fortunately, no one seemed to notice me. There weren't many people around there, though. Even the librarian was not seen there.

I hid behind a shelf in the corner of the room. It was pretty dark and dusty (the shelf blocked the lights and someone didn't seem to care cleaning it), but at least it kept me in the shadow. Besides, I could take a peek at the entire room without anyone noticing,

So, I ate there. I carefully opened the box and separated my chopsticks, carefully too. I cringed down when the chopsticks made a breaking noise. Hopefully, no one heard that. I started to devour the food, savoring the taste on every dish that Mum cooked in the early morning. I don't remember clearly what she made, but all I know is she chose my favorite foods. 

I ate pretty fast. After cleaning the lunch box, I close the lid and hugged it while holding on to the chopsticks to be thrown away later. Now, to escape from the library. I leaned forward, peeking on the room. The situation looked safe. People were starting to go outside. The librarian was still gone. My eyes traveled to each corner to make sure I didn't miss anything.

And that's when I found someone, sitting behind a shelf in the corner of the room. He was just several meters from me, and he was staring. at. me.

I turned my face away immediately, backing down.

Oh, God, I'd been caught! What should I do? Will he report me? Will he halt me?

I peeked at him. Thank God, he currently looked in another direction, to the wall though. 

But what was he doing there? Maybe he had the same situation as me? Having trouble socializing on the first day? 

I gulped. What should I do? Should I just let him be? But what if he was suffering like me? This is so confusing. I started mumbling, in dilemma to choose between two options. Letting him be, or approaching him.

But, as if a spirit possessed me, my body stood up by itself and walked approaching him. I took a spot beside him and sat there. I hugged tightly my lunch box as well as my chopsticks.