Effect ➵ Cethany

Chapter 40- Forgive, Forget, and Tickling

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Afriad - The Neighborhood

Midnight City - M83

I woke up and had my now daily morning run. I decided it would keep my mind clear. It helped for the most part. Just making me not overwhelm myself with everything that's going on. I decided that I wouldn't sit and cry about it all day. I would go on with my day and be civil.

I went to a small coffee shop and got some warm coffee before I went to my first class. The day went on by like usual. I took notes and asked questions about the lesson. I didn't bother to look for Connor in any of my classes. I just heard his voice when he corrected the professor. It took me my best not to go up to him and talk to him.

I went back to my dorm after going to my doctors appointment and told Charlie what my plan was for today. I was still very confused if Connor had ended our relationship or not. I was guessing so because Connor hadn't even tried and talk with me but same goes with me. I had been really hesitant for going to Connors room and explain.

I wanted to be smart and think this out. Know what I will say and not just go knocking on his door and beg for mercy. I still have my dignity. I had everything I wanted to say set but just to scared to go and knock on his door. What is Kian is there and we can't have privacy? What is Connor just closes the door in my face?

"Do you want to go to the beach? For a bonfire I mean. Tomorrow" Charlie asked. I took a bite into my sandwich and thought about it. It's Thursday and that means that it'll be late a Friday night bonfire. I just didn't want to be alone while Charlie was with her boyfriend. Anyways I haven't gone to the beach in a while.

"I guess so" I shrugged and said lowly. I could feel Charlie giving me an odd look.

"He'll come around don't worry." She assured me. Charlie was so sweet never failing to comfort me.

"I think I should go right now" I finally got the confidence and got up slipping on my TOMS. Making sure not to over think it I say goodbye to Charlie and shutting the door behind me.

The pit in my stomach grew and my palms were swearing as I grew closer to his dorm. The halls were quiet and I felt like my pulse shoes through the halls. I reached his room and look up at it. Can I really do this now ? Without thinking again my hand is already knocking on the door. I hear shuffling around in the room and someone unlock the door.

The door swing open and Connors tall figure appears. He's in his boxers and his chest is bare showing his tattoos and his amazing torso. His hair is ruffled up looking like he just woke up. His eyes are a bit red and his lips are swollen. I pry my eyes off of him before he catches me drooling over his stunning body.

"Beth?" His voice is rough and his breath smells a bit like alcohol. Not a lot but just a bit. Why would he be drinking on a school night?

"Can I come in?" I said so he could barley hear me. He stepped asides and opened the door so I could walk in. He closed the door behind. I saw at his desk was a big mess of papers and 2 cans of beer on the ground that were empty. His bed was a mess and a pile of clothes were at the side stacking up and growing. A dent on the desk showed he punched it out of anger.

"Connor I know you probably don't want to talk anymore but please just let me explain." I said to him as I stood a good distance away from him. It wasn't easy standing there and not being able to have his arms wrapped around me.

"Go on" he said willing to let me talk. I'm glad he wasn't pushing the problem away.

"I just wanted you to know that I would never trust Luke with that kind of information. I told you already, his dad is the secretary so of course he's going to get easy access to someone's information. I just wasn't ready to tell you all that because I was afraid you would never look at me the same way or leave me. You getting mad at me in the situation where I was the victim didn't help at all really. But I swear if that's it... I've gotten over it and the doctor said that soon I will be able to stop and I will be cured" I said in a calm gentle tone. Making sure to go slow so he could hear me.