Effect ➵ Cethany

Chapter 55- Drunk Giggles, Scratches, and Nate

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Chapter 55

Shiver Shiver - Walk the Moon

I slid my back down the door and sat there exhausted. I can't stand him. When will he stop. It's not healthy for the both of us. We need to learn how to solve things instead of just running away or drinking.

I cannot say he is the only bad guy in this situation. We are both to blame for here. I get into an argument with him and then go and blame him for everything. I go cry and run away from him. He destroys everything and hurts himself. I think it's time I try and help out instead if watching everything get worse.

It would be nice to have that cute romantic relationship. Where we just go on dates and fight over who should pay for dinner. Or cuddle up in our bed watch movies. Hold hands in public. But I was getting way ahead of myself. Connor was not like those other guys.

Sure he was trouble and tattoos but he was something else. He was very smart and wise. He could be such a dork at times too. He always knew how to crack a joke here and there. He was always so cautious and knew the good from the bad. He didn't really care about what others had to say. He could be the most interesting and fun person to hang out with at times. He was just an amazing person overall. Maybe that's why I couldn't let him go. I just loved him so much.

I had to stop myself before I got so forgiving to him. Just think about what I loved about him made me want to go and kiss him. But I think it's good if we just give ourselves just enough time to think to ourselves. I really need it.

I got up and poured myself some water and went back up to my room. I was just happy I didn't run back into his arms. Well I kinda did but I pushed myself away. I'm proud I yelled at him and kicked him out.

I chugged the rest of the water and set it down on my drawer. It was almost 4 in the afternoon and my day had gone by already. I was still frustrated that he came here. I needed a drink. I didn't want to because that would just put me with Connor where I drink all my problems away. But really I just needed to get my mind cleared.

I sat down and watched some TV to get me from drinking. It actually scared me if I became some alcoholic. I can handle it really. So I guess there's nothing to get all worked up over. Hours passed by and my Mom and said goodbye to me before she left. I had given up already.

I walked down stairs in search for some alcohol in this house. I knew my mother always just kept a bottle. I looked through the cabinets and finally found one. I pulled it out and saw it was a tall glass bottle of vodka. Finally.

It was already dark and I was sure if anyone were to look in here and see me right now they would call the cops or something. I was home alone and just drinking by myself while walking around the house.

I brought the bottle to my lips and tilted it back so the drink could fall into my mouth. The beverage burned my throat as I drank it. I squeezed my eyes together and cringed. I was drinking the bottle like I had no other purpose. The more I drank the more I started to forget why I drank in the first place.

It was working. I can't even remember why I had picked up this bottle in the first place. I didn't want to. I laughed like a maniac for no reason. I put down the bottle feeling like if I drank anymore I would throw up. I walked up the stairs almost tripping on my way up. Laughing at how clumsy I was when drunk.

I picked up my phone and dialed the number I was looking for. They picked up on the first ring surprisingly. "Beth?" Connors voice spoke over the phone.

"Hey Connor can you come over I need help" I said trying to sound as normal as possible but I think my giggling gave it always

"Is something wrong? Hold on I'll be right over" he said and hung up. He was so nice to me when I needed help with anything.