Effect ➵ Cethany

Chapter 53-Selfish,Pictures, and Moms

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Chapter 52

Hippie Sabotage - Stay High

She was gone

She left me. She had enough. The beautiful girl whom I had fallen in love with left me because she couldn't take me anymore. I yelled at her. Telling her she ruined my life when really it was me who did so much worse.

Yet she still didn't see it. She tries so hard to keep me stable and smiling. But look now. I really am surprised she hadn't left earlier. She's the only person who stayed and taken the time to listen to what I have to say. She had hope in me.

But your dumbass let her go.

My subconscious said. I don't know how I could be so cruel and yell at her. She's always right but I could never admit it. She doesn't do anything wrong. It's always my fault. I don't know how I could have just someone so perfect go.

Even the way she gets scared and protective when I get into fight. Her adorable smile when I do something stupid. The way she blushes so easily when I say something dirty to her. Her adorable dimples that are to perfect to be real. It's just the ways she carries herself. She's different. She doesn't let people tell her any different. She could get annoying even when she just wants everything her way and so perfect. But I don't care I still fucking love her.

I was on the floor on my knees and my eyes burned with tears. Look what she's done to me. I'm here on the floor crying because some girl left. But she wasn't just some girl. The things she can do to me. I hate how she's made me feel like this.

I pick myself up and make sure I don't start crying. I don't have a clue what to do now. I run to my old room and throw all my shit in my suitcase. I place the picture is my wallet and bolt out.

I can't let her go just yet.

Hours later I landed in the busy airport of LAX. I made my way through quickly and went to go pick up my car. Throwing my shit inside I went speeding back to the campus.

I don't know what it would take to get her forgiveness. She looks so burnt out and tired. She's looks like she can't take anymore. I need to do whatever I can't to try and change. I have to help or else she'll be the only one trying. I can see how much she's trying to make this relationship work.

"Fuck" I banged harder again on my steering wheel. This god dam traffic irritates me.

I can't take it anymore. Just being away from her and letting her thoughts take over her. I know how she is already. We are two total opposites but once we found each other it's like we can't be left apart.

After more fucking time passes by I finally reach the campus. I park in front of the building where we stay and get out. I take a deep breath not sure how my approach will be once I reach her. And once I'm able to talk to her. Basically I'm just winging it.

I run down the hall and pull out my key that she gave me. I push the door open and look around the room. Nothing.

"Fuck!" I scream and kick my bed. Of course she isn't going to be here. She's smart enough to know that this would be the first place I look.

I run my hands through my hair for the millionth time and think. I close the door behind me and go down the hall. I knock on the old familiar door.

"Connor? What do you want?" Charlie said surprised. She looked so different now. Her was styled differently and it looked like she wore more makeup.