Effect ➵ Cethany

Chapter 60- Ungrateful Guitars and Beach Songs

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Chapter 60 (WE'VE COME SO FAR)

Homecoming- Kanye West ft. Chris Martin ❤

How to save a life- The Fray

Human- Christina Perrie

(Italics= flashback)

"Connor baby please get into your room" My young mother begged me. I stomped my small foot against the ground frustrated because she wouldn't listen to me. I had been trying to tell her that I could tell off my dad so she wouldn't end up crying like she always did.

I hadn't understood why mom and dad had fought everyday. It was the same thing over again. To my younger self it seemed pointless really. It just hurt my heart so much when I had to see my mother crying all the time. I just covered up my ears and at the sound of some bad words. My older sister had told me to stay in my room but I wasn't going to listen to some girl. She would just be crying and say it's all my fault.

"No mommy I want to help" I said crossing my arms. My fathers head turns around swiflty anger built up in his eyes and flinch , scared.

"Get the hell up stairs" My angry dad pointed at the stairs. Tears welled up in my eyes and I charged up the stairs crying.

"I hate you!" My small voice screamed as i slammed the door forcefully.

"Connor?" I shook my head. I looked up and saw a worried Beth in front of me. She licked her lips and i noticed it had been one her habits. I took a deep breath and tried to take in the little information that I had just been given. I was trying to get the flashback out of my mind as well.

"What else did he say? Was he rude?" I asked worried now. What if he wanted to come back in my life. Was he dick? Why not call me and call Beth? What the actual fuck?

"No he wasn't. He just called, telling me he called me in particular because he didn't want you to get freaked out." She looked into my eyes for any hint of emotion as I sat there with no expression. "He also said that he would like you to come and have dinner with him. Now all I'm asking is that you just give it a chance. He said he's promised he's changed." Beth continued squeezing my hand gently.

No I couldn't. I wasn't. I didn't want to. He can't just out of the blue call and ask to have some dam tea and act as if he did nothing wrong. We were about to be fucking homless for fuck's sake. He left my sister, mom, and I to live by ourselves. I hated his guts for the past 15 years asking myself maybe if he stayed that my mother wouldn't have gone through more shit. She stayed with Mark just because she was sure it was a phase and wanted to keep my sister and I safe. I hated both of them. I never had a father figure growing up. Maybe I wouldn't be so fucked up.

"No." I said after a while. "No, he can;t just do that" I said still not getting angry. I guess I was just in shock. I don't know what to do at this point really.

"Please Connor" She begged. "He really wants to talk to you and thinks you're old enough to have a proper talk about everything" She didn't understand really. I don't think she gets the fact that I don't want to have to do anything with him anymore.

"I said no Bethany! I don't want anything to do with that man. I can live the rest of my life fine without his ass." I said pacing around the room. She got up and looked at me as I walked back and forth confused.

"He's your father! Give him a chance. I know you don't want to talk to him but just give it this one try and after that tell me you don't want to talk to him. I know you've wanted a father relationship forever Connor. Don't lie to yourself!" She told me and once she said the word I stopped and looked at her with angry eyes.

"He is not my father! Don't you ever call that man my father! He. Is. Not. My. Father !" I yelled furious. It was now her turn to get angry. She balled her fist at her sides and her face got red.

"At least you have a father! You have two you ungrateful asshole!" she slapped me across the face and I look at her with disbelief. I almost took a step back with her new actions.

Fuck.

Now I felt like a complete dick. Look what I've done now. She's gotten mad at me and I'm the reason for her explosion. I deserved the slap to my face. I'm suprised she hadn't done it earlier. The way her innocent eyes filled with tears of frustration. I should have know the subject was uneasy for her. Yet being the selfish dick I am I still act like it's nothing to her. She was just trying to help me but I couldn't see it. Stuck in my thoughts I see her slipping on her shoes already on.

"Where are you going" I say out loud with a thought. She looks back before she grabs the door knob and her keys in hand.

"Somewhere away from you. I don't know about you but tomorrow I will be atending lunch at 6'o clock with John Franta" She said and slammed the door behind her. I kicked the side of my bed at the sound of my father's name and how I fucked up yet again. I had just gotten her back now shes run off again. I didn't even apoligize to her.

"Dammit" I collided my fist with the wall. I had no idea what to do. I was not going to let her go by herself to lunch with him. I had to go now. As much as I didn't want to, it seemed like I had no choice but to and see what this dick had to say.

I had no idea why I was still standing here like a dumbass. I had to go and look for Beth. Fuck space. I can't leave her to herself. Not again at least. I grab my keys and ran out of my room. I was about to get on to the elevator but saw Charlie and Kian standing there hand in hand.

"Beach" she said. It took me a while to realize what she meant but soon realized that Beth had told her she was going to the beach. I nodded my head at them and got in as they got out. I shook my head at how easily she went back to him. Beth was so different.

I wasted no time speeding to the beach. It was the same beach to when we went to that bonfire. My mind drifting to how good she looked in that god dam bikini. I shook my head and parked in the empty lot. Only a few other cars were still here. It was dark and I could see the bonfire down the beach. I looked over and saw her car parked. I rushed over and searched anxious for her. I saw a small figure sitting on the sand watching the ocean. I stopped my running and sighed at the sight of her. Her hair was blowing in the wind and she had her knees tucked up to her chest. I slipped off my shoes and carried them as I approached her slowly.

I sat down next to her and she didn't take a look at me as she noticed me. I saw her tear stained cheeks and red puffy eyes. Tears spilled out of her eyes at all the things running through her mind. I saw as she shivered due to the cold wind from the ocean. I pulled off my jacket and put it over her shoulders. I pulled her closer to me and left my arm around her.

"I'm so sorry Bethany" I said and she began to cry against my chest. I watched as the waves crashed against the shore. I smiled as I had the most beautiful girl in the world under my arm. She sniffled and I wiped away her tears. She smiled up to me and an idea popped in my head.

"Hold on." I said getting up and running to the car. I pulled out what I wanted from my trunk and ran back almost slipping on the sand. She giggled as I tripped. Her smile lighting up the world.

"You brought your guitar?" She said as I sat down next to her. "I'm still a little rusty but I've been practicing again." I said to her. She put her hair behind her ear and waitied as I began to play the song.

"Today is gonna be the day that they're gonna throw it back to you

By now you shoulda, somehow, realized what you gotta do

I don't believe that anybody feels the way I do about you now"

I continued the song as she smiled all throughout it. I loved nothing more than her smile. It was like a drug to me and I had to see I but struggled to. Our relationship was like no other. A minute ago we were fighting and now we were having a moment out of a movie. It was crazy but I couldn't say I didn't love it. Or just her.

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