✨ No one ever said life would be like this ✨
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Selena was soak by now, tears running down her face mixing with the rain falling from above.
She made it to the cemetery and squeezed through the little opening ripping her dress and cutting her leg in the process.
"Shit!" She mumbled as blood ran down her leg.
But that was the least of her worries. She just wanted her dad. Her dad she regrets losing. Over some boy.
She ran as best as she could to the other side of the cemetery with her leg hurting. She stood still for a minute looking for his name.
She never had trouble finding it.
"D-Daddy where are y-you?" She cried. And after those words left her mouth lightning flashed on one stone and it was her fathers.
Selena smiled and ran to his stone before falling to her knees
"Oh dad." She mumbled as she sat on her knees leaning against his stone.
"I wish you were here, I-I wish I w-would've listened when you told me about Justin. I wish mom wasn't remarrying. I-I wish I was with you" Selena cried as she rubbed his stone.
"No one t-told me life was gonna be this way daddy! No o-one told me I'd h-hurt this much!" She screamed.
That's all she could do was scream.
"I wanna be with you. I don't wanna be here anymore. Daddy please take me with you." Selena laid next to him and placed her hand on top of the grass.
"I wish you never left me." She mumbled as she faced the sky watching the water fall.
"I wish you would've stayed. You know, to beat up Justin, to tell me what I was doing was wrong. To keep mom happy. God I miss you daddy."
"You know I still write my songs right?" Selena smiled at no one but herself.
"Yeah, I still write, I don't sing as much. But writing my music still reminds me of you." Selena sat up and looked at her dads stone.
"I wrote one for you. Wanna hear it?" Selena sniffed
"It's called Missing You."
Selena cleared her throat and sat down with her right leg out since she cut it coming in and her left leg tucked in.
"Oh Oh Oh I'm missing you
Baby I'm missin' you
oh oh oh oh
Baby I'm missing you"
Selena took a deep breath in before letting it out.
"Things'll never be the same without you..."
"What did I do to deserve this
I didn't even get one last kiss, from you
Oh baby God took your love from me
He needed an angel so it seems
I need to feel your hands all over me
I need to feel you kissing me
I need to feel you holding me
I need to feel your touch
Cause I miss your love so much
And I can't keep on living this way
I need you here with me
Why could he take you away, from me"
"It's hard for me to tell you I love you
As I'm standing over your grave
And I know I'll never hear your voice again
Why did you leave me
Why couldn't you just stay
Because my world is nothin', without you
Now I don't know what to do, with myself"
"I would've given you anything
Just to make you happy
Just to hear you say, that you love me one last time
I'd go to hell and back over and over again
Just to prove to you how much I need you here
There is nothing that I wouldn't do
I'd cry for you
I'd lie for you
And there's no doubt that if I could take your place in heaven
I would die for you, yes I will
I would rather give up my life
Than to see tears in your eyes
I can't stand to see you cry"
"Cause it's hard for me to tell you I love you
As I'm standing over your grave
And I know I'll never hear your voice again
Why did you leave me
Why couldn't you just stay babe
Because my world is nothin', without you
Now I don't know what to do, with myself"
"I just don't know what to do with myself
I cant stand looking at those pictures on my shelf
Knowing it was just one week ago, i stood there and took that picture
There's just one thing that I wanna know
Why would God want to hurt me so bad,
Does He know how much it hurts to be missing you
Baby Im missing you
Baby Im missing you
I love you
oooh ohhh
oh God damn it I love you
Why did he take you away... from me
Cause I love you so...
I miss you so much baby I just can't go on baby"
Selena smiled as she sniffed.
"I wrote that a week after you left me. God dad there is so much going wrong" Selena said as she whipped her tears away.
"Justin makes me feel like I'm not worth it, mom, mom is getting married dad! Like what about our family!?" Selena shook her head.
"Daddy come back for me. Please!" Selena crawled to her dads stone and laid down next to it.
She curled up in a little ball and cried herself to sleep right next to her dads stone.
It made her feel like she was with him all over again.
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So Idk When I'll Have Wifi Again, So I'm Just Gonna Leave This Here For Y'all 😊🙃
So Y'all Can Kill Me When I Get Wifi Again 😂👀
The Song Used In This Chapter Is A Song I Gave My Grandpa When He Died In '09 🤧
Anyways Kill Me When I Come Back 😂
- Bertha 💍
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