Trying not to fall in love

Well!!! life is full of up's and downs

It was 12 noon .. I was at me bay window reading the shades of love . My phone rings ... Hello .. Hi its Ashton .. Hey this time in a dulll tone .. I am sorry I left without telling you today morning ....its okay I say .. But I know you thought I was just lucky to spent a night with you didn't you .. ... Ashton says that's not how I think of you ... Well I don't care bye wait Selena before you hang up all the best for you basket ball match ..and your base ball I don't know how are you going to Handel it looking at your previous records . He giggles . I know you think I can't but I can and I will win both of them . The base ball matched started at two it was the final match for us to get in to the semifinals ... Nat ,val,and jasmine were there cheering me up . The score was 7/2 it was my turn .... I was ready just then Ashton was there I lost focus the ball cane and hit my right in the face . My cheek was swollen . I had to sit out .ashton comes to me .. Are you alright he asks ... Only team members are aloud here go away Ashton I say ... He smiles. Does it hurt he says ... Yes and that pill is making me drowsy..its all because. Of your stupid face so charming and my heart just skipped a beat when you brushed your hair with your hand .. And that smile you had ah god ... He smiles. Don't think I am saying this it is the pill that's making me talk like this .sandy comes over and interrupts us well you better learn how to play for the next match at least . You were good at practice . I just hope you were scared and not become like one of those bitches who follows him .. He just wants to have some good action .. He Is just playing you girl . Take care she leaves .. I was shocked .. You know Ashton I am virgin I had three boyfriend and I an still a virgin . I am only losing my virginity to the guy i love and only after I marry him he smiles . Stop smiling I am serious ... He smiles. I walk away to my friends .the basket ball match starts at six had an hour to be prepared for Nat put a lot of makeup on my face to cover the cheek nothing changed .. I practiced at there place Nat and val were inside I was practicing how to shoot a three pointer I couldn't. I failed continuously .. I hear a loud laugh .... God Selena your so adorable and funny to look at when your trying so hard ... Ashton go away I have to practice ..you want to play a match .. No Ashton I want to practice and not fail this time at least.he hands me the ball ... I shoot a basket .. Selena apply more force to it .. This time I put all my force .. The ball hit the ring so hard that it was bent .. Ashton says. Selena you have to through with enough force not with anger . Well I am angry at you mister I kinda said that to loud . Well I can make it up to you for everything . He hands me the ball ... He holds me from behind and he shows me how to hold the ball ... He gently presses my fingers he smells like caramel scented candle.I could feel his warmth . This brought a smile .. This is how it is done he says ... He steps away from me ..... That minute I felt bad that he stepped far from me . Now your turn shoot he says . I did it didn't go in . A look at him.. Can you please. Show it to me again . He takes the ball and shoots it straight into the hoop.now your turn it went in and continuously 3 time after Nat and val came hey lets go oh ash what are you doing i told you she doesn't like you . I mouth to her maybe I doo . She doesn't get it we go to the match I was kinda nervous hopefully I don't screw up this time . We were the ballerina bees up against the green bulls . The girls were huge first half I was about to shoot a basket untill a girl pushed me .. She got a red card ..but I was upset she said I don't know anything bout the game and I can't help my team win and was just that one bitch that every team has one who is of no use . I mean I no most of them above are true but .. Why do you bring your self down so others can't but she did and now she is going down .. I played with all my strength and stamina our score was 28 and the opponents. Score was 12 . We had 2:46 min left

They were gaining points quickly 1:03 they were 20 and we 0:59 they were 26 . And we were still 28 I tried to shoot a 3 pointer I failed they shot a basket 0:50 they were 29 . 0:45 Rita got 3 points for the team 0:30 I tried for a three pointer and it went straight in . 0:12 . ...0:5 no one got a basket I shot another 3 pointer and we won . I was screaming with joy . Nat , and val were so happy so was the team as it the first time we got into finals ..we went to my place ... Every one came even people I didn t know it was my first party that I hosted . The party was amazing . I felt popular . I found every one but Ashton . I go to my room to get a hair band for Maya my French class mate . I find Ashton going through my stuff hey .. What are you doing o scream nothing seeing your room ... you look cute in all your pictures how come ... Even with braces you look good .well thank you . Your not so bad your self I say with a big smile .. Trust me I was a nerd with glasses and braces. Chubby ...roamed around with messed up hair .. Got bullied he unlocks his phone and shows me the picture . Aww you were a heart breaker even than .. You look so cute god I love you when you were younger it is nothing to be ashamed of . He smiles. Well would you consider loving me now ... Uh will if you get glasses. And that hair oh and those cheeks maybe I will . He gets a Text katlin :hey guess what iam wearing . Nothing . Do you want a picture ??? Winky face . I give the and leave you read are previous text maybe than you will believe in me .... I read the texts .... It was true he did break up with her ... When did you break up with her I asked ... The day after you kissed me ... The kiss we shared meant something to me he says . But you were with her for 2 years who could you be so okay ... I told you . Me and her always had a physical. Relationship . I told you after Sofia who I feel . Do you fell the same bout me .. Just an other girl ..no your different he Says ... Because you didn't realize yet what if I turn out to be exactly like her or different than What you thought I was .. What if we fight.. your going to give up na ... What if some one better comes along .... What if I get bossy or out of control u wont love me .... He was quite . I walked out of the room . I had to go back to get my phone ... Ashton was on the phone with katlin can you meet me at my house now ...i interrupt sorry just needed to take my phone .hey Ashton says I turn to him what I ask its not what you think ... Ashton we are just friends so you don't have to explain me everything okay ...i know I don't matter to you as much as Sofia or any of your ex g.f but I like that we are friends. Okay now go to katlin and get everything fixed

God can't you listen to me. For once ...ashton screams . Du dud dud du du Ashton phone rings I am coming two seconds . And he leaves .he comes back don't think I walked out just cause I didn't think your important ... I just need to finish this so we can continue. Or begin a new relation