Trying not to fall in love

The Sofia week ..

It was Nov 3 .. Time flies very quick .. Don't you think so Nat I ask as we lie on the grass of our school lawn .. Hmm she says . We realize every one was rushing in ... I was curious to know what happen so .. I dragged Nat with me to see Sofia ceral ... I knew she was just an actor of the t.v show . Just now ... It and finished 2 seasons .. There was going to be a third. Season .. Nat dragged me out of there hey Nat slow Down. What happen nothing .. Lets go have lunch she says .. We sat at the lunch table ... Ashton comes to us he stands and asks of we wanted something ... Just than Sofia ceral comes and kisses him on Lip .. He kissed her back before pushing her away .. I was torn apart .. Who could he kiss her back .. No Selena no crying .. Don't .. I control my self and walk into the washroom ... I meet Kat she was crying too ... She sees me oh he did it to you too she came back and he ditched .. You .. She says it hurt even more .. I lock my self in the bathroom stalls lunch was over so was the class after that ... Nat skipped the class as she was looking for me .. Selena she shouts ... She ducks and peeps in to every stall .. She finds me in the last one .. I come out ... I hug her tight and start to cry ... Hey he is outside you want to talk she asks ... who ash no I reply .. It's been 10mins Ashton walks into the girls washroom ... Selena listen .. No I yell I think I get it now why you wanted us to be a secret .. You did this to Katlin to you are the worst person in the entire plant ... Selena I didn't kiss her with any feelings it was just reflex not even that I didn't mean to kiss her she kissed me first .. . All that counts is you kissed her back Ashton ... I say .. I run to the office I call my dad to pick me up .. I didn't go to school the next day everyone tried to talk to me .. But i blocked them .. I thought of everything in the past and future .. I wasn't going to be sad anymore I was going to get revenge .... I wanted him to be jealous ... I call Nat omg hey Selena I missed you she says .. Hey where are you I ask ..me I am at home she says ..you didn't go to school I ask no not with out you she says ... Hey I want to go shopping will you come I ask she says yes I go and pick her up .. Before I leave I told my mom and everything .. And why locked my self in a room .. Every one I love always loves someone else more them ... It mad me sad to think about .. I reached her house .. I go into to her house .. I see Ashton and Sofia he yells at her stop it Sofia .. He sees me and starts to walk towards me i rush into natilies room and shut the door .. He knocks the door ones ... He kept knocking it was the tenth time .. I open the door what .. I question him .... Selena hi he says .. Sofia comes towards him ... Tell me who that girl is she says ... He doesn't tell it's me ... He tells Kaitlin okay .. I get angry .. I yell bitch move we need to go ... Excuse me where's your manners .. She asks .. Well its on the top shelf right next the shelf where i put the story of how Sofia ceral lost her self respect kissing my boyfriend .. Ashton so she is the one huh she says .. He denies it .. I just walk away ... I go shopping ... For some reason i buy clothes that suit me and define me and not slut clothes I mean clothes which show a lot of things. .... And few one Piece 's . I had fun ... I see Ashton in my room as soon as I open my door .. Sorry he says he was on his knees ... You do mean more to me than Sofia ... And that's why you said am not you girl friend ash .. Mom comes in honey how was your ... She stops as she sees Ashton .. Oh you went with Ashton she asks .. No I went with Nat he joined us later

You want come down for game night she asks I say yes ... Ashton do you want to join ..ma he might have something better ... I would love to join he says while looking at me .. We go down .. Well the only reason my parents were cool with Ashton at my place was because when I meant I told them every thing I told them I was insecure and scared and that his first love was here and all not that she and him kissed soo yeah .. We decided to play charades .. Me and my dad in one team ash and mom were in one team .. Sofia kept calling .. Him .. My mom ask if its something important you can leave honey she says to him ... Um no no its just a friend .. No ash its Sofia you better go I whisper .... He was angry I could see it .. I need a glass of water can you come with me he asks .. I quietly go in with him .. I hand him glass of water .. He takes it and throws the water on my face ... I get angry I throw a entire. Bottle of water on him he takes the tomato puree which was next to him and throws it on me .. I throw the salad that I made .. And I again threw the batter of the cake on his head ... It's was Sofia calling this time I pick up ... Hey this is his girl-friend talking .. He snatches the phone and puts it on speaker okay Selena drew dickhead .. He loves me not you .. I am better than you and prettier than you ... So what I reply you cheated on him and broke his heart ... Not even realizing how nice he was and how crazy he was about you ... He quickly snatches the phone ... Listen to me .. I don't love you .. I love Selena .. She I the most prettiest. Girl I have ever seen .. The sweetest and most wonderful girl I have ever meet .. Incase your wondering why I told you she is not that is because I didn't what you to hurt her and manipulate. Everyone to not liking her ... Like you did to Carly he says .. There was no reply my mom comes in to see us drenched.. Who started she asks .. I say me .. He says me .. Fine than me and Thad are going out for cake tasting you can clean up now or come to taste the cake with us and clean later my ma says I look at Ashton .. He pouts .. I knew he wanted to talk .. Ma can I clean this up and you send me the details of the shop and I will be there .. She smiles and says okay .. As soon as my mom leaves ..thank you Selena ash. Says .. Hey can you please look at me .. I look at him and say what ..he tries coming closer i step back .. The only reason I told lets not tell anyone about the relation ship is because ... Because what Ashton .. You thought I am using you for you money and your fame in school .. What no Ashton exclaims because I didn't what you to get hurt ... Cause I know you can't held to much attention ... When its not because of you ... I knew your self esteem would get hurt to been know as ashtons girl friend rather than the one and only Selena drew .. Or not being know for your amazing voice or creativity or being you .. I didn't want people to think bad bout you .. Tear start to roll on hearing this .. But Ashton I say as I look up to him with tears rolling down he comes closer and starts wiping my tears .. And asks me to stop crying .. Please Selena can you stop crying ... I can't see you when your hurt ... I quickly push him back I need to have a bath .. I run up stairs... I did have a bath while I was crying my eyes out were throbing and red I don't know why I cried but I cried for 2 hours .. As I come out I see Ashton sitting on the floor with his two legs crossed with his head in between .. Hey I am back I say .. He hugs me really tight please stop crying I will never do anything that hurts ever again please he says .. Please give me a chance ... Ashton I say hmmm he says .. I am sorry. Why are you sorry baby I am the one who should be he says ... It's was just a kiss and you pushed her back .. And you know you shouldn't have slapped her I say ... Well she made me angry .. He says .. Well will you ... No I will never hurt you for making me angry he says ... I was angry cause she was hurting you and talking shit bout you and wanted ruin you thats why .. Hey I love you okay ... I mean I might hit you if you tried to cut your self like ...how do you know I say while trying to look at his face .. Nat told you right I ask .. Promise me you will never hurt your self he says .. I don't promise I reply .. Hey go home and refresh na ash .. Umm no can i just stay like this ... In this potion he asks .... Hmmm maybe say ... We were glued to each other for like an hour or two ... Than my mom calls hey we are in olive bistro you wnat to join us she asks um mom can .. Yes he can also she says i was surprised .... By the fact that she answers before i could finish ... hey Ashton do you want to come with me to have dinner with my parents ... Umm ..i understand. If you don't .. Can go refresh. And come he says ... Um okay .. He goes home I get dressed and leave .. We stared with starts ... I was okay that he didn't turn up my dad ask where is your boyfriend. In a very unreal way i shrug and say i don't know .. I invited him .. Though .. That's when he comes in a white shirt and normal jeans .. With a blazer in his hand and some flowers for my mom and an expensive. Bottle of wine for my dad and chocolates for both of them .. What about me i whisper .. You didn't get me anything i ask . Well you have me he whispers .. I smile .. Unless you want more he asks .. No having. You by my side is more than what i could ask for ... Dinner went well surprisingly thad and ash were talking in friendly terms ... We ask for the check .. I will pay I yell .. My mom looks at me .. That's the kind of look she gives when there was no need of me to yell .. Thad ask why ... I got a job at a radio station and plus I still have 200 dollars left from the part time jobs so I can pay .. Ash and mom to gather .. How come you never told me .... Mom I told dad .. And ash I didn't think you would be interested I whisper .. Hmm he says .. So I pay and we leave to our respective destination .