13 Reasons Why Imagines | #Wattys2018

I Need You~Clay Jensen

Warnings: rape is hinted at
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You stared at the locker next to yours, the stupid flowers and teddy bears from people making you feel sick; none of them really knew her, not like you did- nor did they really even care, except maybe one person....
Clay.
You turned around to see him furiously glaring at the locker with his trademark headphones in. You scanned his face and you recognised the pain in his eyes as it mirrored your own. You knew you should talk to him, say something to him- anything.
But you couldn't, you couldn't face him. Not after listening to those goddamn tapes.
Of course you didn't blame Clay, he loved her too, nearly as much as you.
You watched as he turned to look at you, you froze and couldn't rip your eyes from his gaze.
However it was broken shortly as Bryce slammed into Clay, glaring at him.
'Why the fuck have you been going around accusing me of shit, Jensen?' he hissed at him.
'Because you deserve it after what you did to her, you fucking asshole!' Clay angrily retorted, glaring at him with such intensity.
By this point you'd made it to the front of all the people who'd surrounded the boys, you tried to push forward but Zach grabbed your arm and pulled you back.
'Zach let me go!' you said whilst trying to loose his grip on your arm.
" y/n, stop, you can't get in-between this, it wont end well for you!' he pleaded with you, but you didn't care. As soon as he released your arm you darted froward and between the two boys just as Bryce was saying something.
'You little shit Jensen, i didn't do anything, your dead girlfriend was just being an attention seeking little whore again, i did fuck all!' She's the one who-'
Everyone gasped as Bryce stumbled backwards from the shock of your slap to his face. All you could here was the rush of blood in your ears as you stared at your hand shocked at what you just did.
You spun around as you felt Clays hand on your arm as he said 'y/n come on we should go, y/n come on, we need to go now'.
You turned and looked around the corridor and saw Justin pulling Bryce to his feet whilst Zach was glaring at him.
You let Clay turn you around and gently pull you down the corridor by your arm, out of the door and into the fresh air. He sat you down on a wall behind the gym and waited for you to calm down gently rubbing your arm with his hand.
You suddenly noticed you were crying and felt stupid about the whole situation- you had slapped Bryce. Bryce of all people.
' You know all of the things he said about her weren't true, y/n, she was good and kind and she deserved so much better'. You looked up at Clay with tears streaming down your face.
'I miss her Clay, I miss her so much, and I feel awful because I didn't do anything to help her I just left her when she needed me most, I blamed her for what happened to Jeff, and it wasn't her fault she tried to help and I blamed her for leaving the stupid fucking stop sign on the ground! I didn't believe her when she told me about Bryce and what he did to Jessica- what sort of friend am I Clay? I didn't believe any thing she told me. I'm the reason she's not here. I should have helped her and I didn't I-'
'y/n shush, shush, its not your fault ok? Neither of us were there when she needed us most, but we will have to live with that alright? But you have to remember she did love you y/n, you're her best friend and she wouldn't want you to be unhappy ok?'
You were both silent, except for the sound of you crying. After some time of just looking at Clay you spoke up.
'What happened to us Clay? Why don't we talk anymore? I miss our conversations and hanging out and i know everything changed after... after... her death -but I don't want to not talk to you Clay, I don't just miss her, I miss you too'
'So do I, I miss everything we used to do together, with or without her, I need you, y/n' ,as he finished talking he pulled you into a hug and you felt him shake as you both cried.
And although the pain wasn't gone, standing there wrapped up in Clay you felt lighter, and you knew what he said was right- he needed you and you need him.
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