just an angsty Justlex fanfic that no one asked for, loosely based off Perfect by Selena Gomez
I'm literally crying over my own fic rn
Warning: Very angsty, cheating, and cussing
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Alex pulled Justin in closer by his collar kissing him with all the passion he had. These moments in the janitor's closet with him were all he had and he took advantage of it every time. Justin's hands roamed, moving from Alex's waist to his ass and Alex tried to just lose himself in the moment. He tried so hard to focus on the now and not the fact that Justin would be going back to his girlfriend in about five minutes. He tried to convince himself that it was just him and Justin in the world but it was so hard when he could taste the recements of cherry Chapstick on Justin. He was way too aware of the fact that this was the same way Justin's girlfriend touched him. They weren't quiet about it, they practically groped each other in the halls. Yet he still couldn't resist.
Justin pulled away to breathe, leaving his forehead leaning on Alex's. The way he looked into Alex's eyes made him feel like it was just them. That this time they'd be able to walk down the halls together holding hands instead of sneaking out of the closest at different times.
"I have to go. We still on for tonight?" Justin asked pulling away and trying to quickly compose himself by running his hands through his hair and adjusting his clothes.
"Yeah." Alex responded meekly unable to look him directly in the eyes.
"Alright I'm going to go out first, wait a few minutes." Justin explained even though there was no reason to. By now Alex had the drill down pat. And in a flash Alex was standing alone in the dimly lit closet with his head in his hands. He was very aware of how wrong it was that he and Justin were sneaking around while he had a girlfriend. But he also was unable to forget that he was utterly in love with Justin. He knew this probably wasn't real to Justin in the slightest but it was so real to him.
Alex took a deep breath before slinking out of the closet into the empty halls. Lunch would be over in a few minutes and he'd have to face Justin in history. Trying to clear his thoughts he walked back to the cafeteria towards his usual table. He tried not to falter when he saw Justin with whatever his girl's name was. She was leaning into him and he was smiling at her the same smile Alex thought was reserved for him. Justin looked up at Alex and his face changed with longing or sadness but Alex ignored it and sat next to Zach.
"Dude where were you?" Zach asked popping a grape in his mouth.
"Had to get some extra help in French." Alex explained with a shrug praying they wouldn't ask any more questions. He couldn't help but glance at Justin out of the corner of his eye. She was looking at him with this love-sick look and Alex hated it. He didn't have any real reason to hate her, she was nice enough. But he couldn't help but wish Justin was holding him instead.
"Justin can I talk to you for a second?" Alex asked letting his mouth go without thinking it through. His eyebrows furrowed but ne nodded and followed Alex to right outside of the cafeteria.
"I can't fucking do this anymore Justin. I can't keep being on the side for you whenever you want. I can't keep watching you with her or whatever new girl you're with. I can't do this anymore." Alex ranted, trying to keep his voice quiet and his tears at bay.
"Alex guys like me don't get a happy fucking ending. If I just be with you, if we make it official, it will make this real. If this shit is real I'm going to lose you and I can't do that. I won't do that. Because I'm in love with you Alex. All I want is to just be with you but we both know that end well." Justin admitted, his eyes ringed with red and burning into Alex's. All Alex could do was just stop, knowing Justin felt the same way was all that mattered. No longer caring what anyone thought he pulled Justin in closer locking their lips with more passion than he'd ever had. Justin didn't even hesitate to let his tongue into his mouth, he didn't even hesitate to let everyone know this boy was his. They were both very aware that so many people were watching but it didn't matter anymore.
