私の美咲- My Misaki

Chapter 27

Misaki's P.O.V

Tomorrow was Saturday, and I had finally made a decision. A decision that I contemplated carefully. In the end I realized that I finally found someone who was more important to me than anyone else. I had finally found the one person who I was willing to be selfish for. I usually would give up on everything I wanted because I didn't want to burden nii-chan, I would always put him first. That's why when Usagi-san's father mentioned nii-chan and how disappointed he would be, I caved in. Ever since my parents death I have lived my whole life trying to make nii-chan proud of me. However, now I realize that there was one person I was not willing to give up, even if that meant disappointing nii-chan. So, I decided that it was time to tell him about my relationship with Usagi-san.

"Nii-chan, can I talk to you in private?" I asked after dinner.

"Sure Misaki, let me just finish cleaning up." He responded with a smile.

"Takahiro go talk with Misaki, I'll finish cleaning. I may be pregnant but I can still do this much." Manami said as she pushed an unwilling Takahiro towards me.

We proceeded to go to the living room and for a few seconds my mind went blank as I looked at nii-chan who was smiling encouragingly at me. I realized that what I was about to do could possibly change my relationship with him and that I could possibly loose the only family I have left. Yet, I couldn't help but hope that nii-chan would understand my feelings since he had a family of his own now. With that thought in mind I steeled myself for what was to come.

"Nii-chan, I have something to tell you. I want you to try and understand me before you say anything, okay?" I told him with a shaky voice.

"What is it Misaki." He asked with a worried expression.

"I'm in a relationship with Usagi-san." I said while looking at the ground because I wasn't brave enough to look him in the eyes.

"Excuse me, did you just say you're in a relationship with Akihiko?" He said flinched from the coldness in his voice.

When I finally regained my courage and looked him in the eyes, I immediately regretted it. His eyes were begging me to tell him that he heard wrong and that I hadn't just said what I did. I looked away before replying.

"Nii-chan, I'm in love with him. I don't know how it happened but I can't deny my feeling for him anymore. And I don't want to lie to you anymore either." I said with as much courage as I could muster.

"In love, LOVE?! Do you even hear yourself? You can't be in love with Akihiko, he is a man, who is way older than you." He said, his voice becoming louder as he spoke.

"Please, try to understand me-"

"Understand? Understand what? That my little brother is a fag who like older men. How do you expect me to possibly understand that?" Nii-chan interrupted me.

To say I was crestfallen would be an understatement. I had never seen nii-chan as angry as he was now. It pained me to hear him say all those things to me, but I tried my best to see things from his point of view. I tried to understand how shocking it would be to find out that your brother is in a romantic relationship with your best friend.

"Please listen to me, let me try to explain how things turned out to be like this. It's not like I chose to be gay. I just couldn't help but fall in love with Usagi-san, just like you fell in love with Manami." I said trying to reason with him.

"You can't compare my love for my wife with what you feel for Akihiko. What you feel for him isn't love, it's disgusting. I can't believe Akihiko would be capable of stabbing me in the back like this. To think I trusted him with your care, and he went and seduced you. How could you fall so easily for him?" He continued to rant without listening to a word I had to say.

"Nii-chan please...." I tired to speak only to find that my throat was all clogged up and I had to try my best to hold back the tears that wanted to escape my eyes.

"Don't call me that, from now on you are no longer my brother. You disgusting piece of-" He raised his fist as if to hit me and I closed my eyes to prepare for it, but it never came.

When I opened my eyes I saw Manami standing behind him, holding his arm as tightly as she could in order to prevent him from hitting me. I was grateful yet worried that he would take his anger out on her.

"Takahiro stop this, this instant. He is your brother for gods sake. Why don't you listen to him and try to understand how he is feeling." She said as she held his face between her hands.

"He isn't my brother until he sees that what he is doing is wrong, how could he say he loves another man. Just think about how disappointed our parents-" He was unable to finish because Manami slapped him across the face as she trembled in anger.

"You apologize to Misaki right now. The only one your parents would be disappointed in is you. Love is love no matter who the other person is. If you can't see that than I was wrong in choosing you as my husband." She told him.

Nii-chan stood there in stunned silence for a while before he turned around and walked out the door, slamming it shut behind him. I was about to go after him when Manami held out her hand to stop me.

"Let him go, he just needs time to process things and cool his head. I'm sure he'll be back." She told me with a sad smile tugging at her lips.

I did as she told me and stayed even though I felt like I was suffocating. I helped Manami to her room, since the whole argument had taken a toll on her body. Then I went back to the living room to wait. I waited and with each minute that ticked by my heart sank a little deeper. Nii-chan never came back.

***End of Chapter***

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