Sweet Heartache

Goodbye?

Jennie's POV

"You need to pause a little on that part, Yoongi. Again!" I said as we try to record their last song for this comeback.

It's been a week since the incident with Yoongi and the others, and not a single soul gave me a chance to explain.

Jisoo unnie had been staying with me ever since.

There's no point in staying at their dorm when every human being inside that unit hates me.

Well,  except for Jin and Jungkook and that's mainly because of Jisoo unnie.

Namjoon kept on glaring at me.

Hobi doesn't even give me a smile.

Jimin doesn't even spare a glance while V simply ignores my existence.

I can't say I've given up.

I tried to reach out to them multiple times and I'm thankful for Jisoo unnie is still letting me even if I know for sure how pathetic I have been making myself.

Every day,  I feel like I'm getting smaller and smaller and the remaining self-esteem that I have on myself is even slowly fading.

Jisoo unnie may not be saying anything about it though I was sure there was pity in her eyes.

As for Yoongi,  the only time I see him is every time they recorded.

I tried to talk to him but it feels like talking to a wall.

Somehow,  they were doing a great job in making me feel like I don't exist,  and it fucking hurts every time.

It feels like there was a knife on my chest.

They have been recording for two days and everything was a mess.

The boys are messing up on purpose and not listening to anything I've got to say as their music director, and everyone around the office is feeling the tension.

I get it. They just met me so it's easy to keep their distance but to me, it hurts like hell.

They're the closest to family to me. Every moment I've spent with them had been the most beautiful moments of my life,  but I guess it isn't the case for them.

For once,  I thought I've found friends,  but I guess they are just a bunch of wonderful people passing by.

I know it's my fault for not telling them but I hope they realize that it's my job and I've been doing it even before I personally get acquainted with them.

Besides, I was never confident in telling people about what I do. In fact,  I don't usually have someone to tell these things with,  until they came.

Above all this,  Yoongi is being a real bastard.

Yesterday,  when he was doing his part on the song, he kept on the glaring in the glass-like he can actually see me.

"Again!" I said,  my voice getting stern every moment.

This guy is starting to piss me off.

My blood boils a lot more when I saw him roll his eyes.

But again, I can't do anything about it.

"Yoongi, please..." I pleaded.

I was so sure the people behind me are getting awkward.

Besides, my voice is no longer masked. What's the point when they already know who I am.  But the people with me are confused as fuck.

"What?" he said,  in a mocking tone.