2017년 9월 31일
september 31, 2017
i think i need to start using you again.
a lot has been happening after last week, and i'm getting stressed.
... i've started cutting again, but i'll stop soon, it won't be long before i do.
it's just like a stress reliever, but i doubt i can do it any longer with changkyun back from america. unless he just doesn't care that i've started up again.
he's also seemed to become more scary and dominant. i can understand the dominance in bed, but away from that, i don't get it.
today, he attacked seyoon.
i also forgot to say, kim seyoon's mother's funeral was yesterday and we reunited after the event. we went drinking and he took me home since he was sober. we fell asleep on opposite sides of the bed, and the morning i woke up, i found them fighting.
more like seyoon being beaten while changkyun punched him senselessly.
he called me slut and forced me to take seyoon home. why did he call me a slut, i don't know. but it defiantly makes me feel as he might punish me in a dislikeable way. whether it being sexual or labour.
i really need to cut again. i'm sorry, i'll stop soon. but i have to do it now while changkyun isn't here. he went to jooheon's.
i also really need to change this bandages.
-byeongkwan
✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*
filler chapter thingy
that's why it is 24.5
:)
double update
whoOooO--
no need to thank me.
-jin
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