I don't want a real relationship but I don't want a fictional one

Adam's Route

I open my eyes and see Adam's sleeping face close to mine. We inches apart from kissing. 

I stare at his face for a moment.

He's really beautiful when he sleep like this.  

Adam and I have this odd relationship we both have. We are not boyfriend and girlfriend. This is how it works. if Adam feels down and wants to have pleasure, He calls me. When I feel down, I go to him. 

It's like friend with benefits. 

I slowly drag myself off the bed. I am bare naked. My clothes are scatter across his floor. 

How did our relationship sort of blossom? 

The day after my birthday, I message Adam. I told Adam if he wants to have a hangout. Of course, it became a friendly chat then flirting here and there. Adam was clinging onto me. I was clinging onto him. We couldn't keep our hands off each other. The Next day, I'm in bed with Adam. 

We both didn't regret it. 

I wasn't looking for relationship. He wasn't either. 

We both agreed if we want pleasure. We call each other. 

We have been doing for about two months. 

I know about Adam's ex wife issues. I can tell he was still in love with her. He has pictures of her all over his living room. 

I kind of want to take shower. 

In a few hours, I have to go that lame job I have. 

Adam wouldn't mind. I mean, I come here three times a week here. 

Where is his towel? 

"I see your bottom." 

I turn around seeing Adam looking at me from head to toe.

"eyes closed," I said trying to hide my butt.

"What are you doing?" He ask.

"I'm using your shower. I have work in a few hours."

"Mind if I join in?"

"No."

"Come on, I know you want this hot body."

He removes the sheets. I cover my eyes.

"Adam!!!"

He laughs, "why are you covering your eyes? We have sex couple times now. you should be use to it and I'm use to seeing your body."

"The lights were off."

"Next time, you come we having the lights on." 

"no." 

"Why are you ashamed seeing my body?" 

"I'm using your shower, Adam." 

I grab the towel and went straight to the bathroom. I lock the door behind me. 

Adam is a funny. He's different what I remember from high school. He was a charming and nice guy. I fell in love with him hard when I was in high school. The Adam in the present is so much different. He's still charming. He flirts a lot. He compliments me every time he saw me. He makes terrible jokes. He thinks he's comedian. 

There are times we actually hang out. I remember Adam text me out of the blue when my lunch break is. I told him. He came right over and we went out for lunch.