No U

Im actually working on something...

And I'm wondering if you guys have anything to say about me?

I wrote two things a few of my friends from Instagram told about me (which were good) and wrote them down in a notebook. I call it The Notebook Of Encouragements.

I'll use it to... encourage me when I'll feel down...

*sighs*

Last time I asked people on Instagram from my story of they have anything good to say about me and barely any of them replied.

I mean, I don't blame them. I'm not much of a good person either. Heh. Heh..

No no, don't worry. I'm not on my depression phase again. I'm just worried about something.

Don't worry about it, okay?
I can handle it. I've handled a lot of things!

Im a strong b o i

My sister told me I was a spoiled brat for liking books too much.

Heh, I got a little upset but I'm okay.
I should write this on my other book. Whoops, wrong bookkkkkk

Hehe.

Am I really a spoiled brat?
I probably am.

Let's just talk about something.

Hey look at this little teaser-

"Sure, I've worked with Chef, but that doesn't mean I haven't changed.
But maybe they were right. They shouldn't trust someone like me. I'm nobody. Just like how she always told me I was."

*dances weirdly* yEEt

I just wanna lay in bed. I've made too many mistakes this week. I hate it.
I know mistakes are good, but the mistakes I made are so nerve-racking that I can't stop thinking about them.

My entire life is a mistake.
Woahhhhh am I really on my depression phase?
Nahhhhhh.

I wanna believe them.
I wanna believe what they say.
But I can't.

I feel weird.

Hopefully Adrian can cheer me up tomorrow. He always does somehow without him even realizing.

Or at least my other friend who is hilarious and creative. I should show him my GUDETAMA pencil case. I just got it and it's ADORBS.

WE BOTH LOVE GUDETAMA

EUDHDHDHDHSHSHEH

I hate it when my feelings are being played around with.

And I'm serious. I hate it when people try to show off how amazing they are, but it was all just a prank.
I bring myself down for that. Sure, it was a prank but before they admit it is, I just think that I'm not gonna reach their level.

I remember one person who's always showing off. I just try to ignore them.

Maybe I am a spoiled brat..
Maybe that's why I don't deserve anything.

Hey I was just greeted by a cute lil toddler and I was internally crying.

It made my day so much better and he was so cuteeeeee

Maybe I am a brat..