No U

Wam

What's a title

Weird flex but ok

Also about the SHL in the box

I'm literally dumb and don't know how to make my own signature

I've been trying, I was never satisfied

But I prefer the box thing because it was really simple

And I like simple

If only life was simple

H a

I don't know why but vents make me feel happier

Yet I just seem to make everything worse because of it

It's probably because people think it's useless for me to vent
(Which probably is)

But venting makes me less worried and anxious

You guys don't mind if I vent a little, do you?

To me, bottling up your thoughts is like having trust issues with yourself.

I don't trust anything, not even myself sometimes

I can think something in a second, but think different in the next second.

An example of it is like
"I'm happy, everything is going smoothly, no drama, no fights, just peace."

But then after a while, my thoughts go like
"I'm not happy, nobody likes me, everyone keeps telling me these lies that I found out about, my friends hate me, I'm emotionally broken, I can't find what's wrong with me, I'm just a waste of someone's time"

Sometimes I try so hard to push everyone away but it's difficult

On one side, I want to make the world better with positivity and equal rights but at the other hand, I can't help but make everything so depressing

Which is probably why people don't like adding me to public stuff

Sometimes I don't even wanna leave home from my bed to go to parties and shopping

Which probably everyone does

I missed crying too somehow

Crying makes me happy for some reason
(Not actual happy, like less sad)

I really want to talk to that one person about my insecurities without making everything worse between us

I don't expect anything from anyone

But for a second I really thought it was possible
Sadly, again, I tell myself lies too