i've been getting really bad headaches all week and it's really straining on me because i'm missing important things and i come home and do nothing at my moms house. i had a wonderful day at my step-grandparents (pretty much a camp) and i came home all happy because i had been talking to my friend all day and just felt good all day until i got to my moms and now i just feel down and like crying. i don't understand why i always feel like this here, i feel like something is missing from my life and it sucks. i don't know how fix it. i'm starting to think that this book is a waste because funny enough sometimes i think that i'll get advice or something but no one wants to read this stupid shit. i just don't know what's wrong with me and i want it to stop. i guess i could just use a friend right now
