I Will Never Love You~Jenzie

6. Trust.

Mackenzie

When I was done in the shower I got dressed and dried my hair. I straightened it then left my room to go downstairs. As I approached the living room, Mark stopped me. "Hey kenzie!" I turned around to see him looking really cute in casual clothes. He had a white t shirt on, khaki joggers, and black Adidas High tops. I smiled and walked over to him. "You look really nice," I said and his smile widened. "I could say the same about you," I blushed and looked down. "So, I'm leaving for a few days and I was wondering if you'd wanna go out for a little bit. We can go to the movies, or an arcade or something then grab some dinner at a restaurant. Sound good?" I liked the sound of the movies or arcade but I didn't want to go eat. "Sure," I replied and he smiled again and wrapped an arm around my shoulders, leading me to the door. Once we left the house we got into a black jeep and drove off.

We decided to go to the movies to see Slenderman. At first I was reluctant but Mark promised to comfort me if I got scared. So, an hour and a half into the movie, I was curled up against Mark with his arm around me, trying to cover my eyes from the movie but still see it at the same time. I squeaked when a scary scene came on and he chuckled and tightened his arm around me. I felt safe and comfortable, and for once I felt like someone other than Brynn and Annie cared about me. My parents barely ever pay attention to me and if they do they're criticizing me, so it doesn't count.

The movie ended and we were walking to Mark's car laughing and talking about the movie. "So, Applebee's?" he questioned and I internally sighed. "I'm actually not hungry, but we can go if you want." he frowned. "Alright." we got into the car and drove to the restaurant talking like old friends.

Johnny

Kenzie was in the shower and Lauren and I were on the sofa talking. "Why the hell was she bleeding?" I asked and lauren shook her head. "I don't know. She said she got hurt in school from falling but, after hearing what Annie and Brynn said about the bullying and that you saw it get physical today, I don't believe it for a second." I let out a breath and nodded. "I don't either. I think someone hurt her." she nodded her head and looked down at the floor. "Why the sudden change in attitude?" she asked and I looked at her. "What do you mean?" "At first you hated her and you've been insulting her but now, you're all nice and it must be really confusing for her. " I sighed and wiped my face with my hands. "I know. It's just, I've realized that I'm taking it all out on her. And now hearing that I'm not the only person doing it, and that she believes it? It broke my fucking heart which was weird, I don't really care about people so for me to care about her, it was weird and still is." Before Lauren could answer we heard people talking but they were too far to make out words. I went to get up to see but Lauren stopped me and put a finger to her lips. We tried to hear what they were talking about but all we could make out was that it was Kenzie and Mark. I didn't like it and wanted to stop it but Lauren wouldn't let me. Then the door opened and closed and that's when I burst away from Lauren and ran to the door. I saw Mark and Mackenzie get into Marks jeep. I was starting to unlock the door but Lauren stopped me again. "Johnny what the hell?! Stop it, leave them alone." I just watched as they drove away and a feeling of sadness and anger filled me. "Why are you so upset? They're probably just getting food or hanging out." I didn't respond because the Postmates guy was at the door with our food.

We were eating our Chinese food silently. Lauren tried to have a conversation but I ignored her, lost in thought about Mackenzie and Mark. What if he makes a move on her? What if she likes him? What if he likes her? What if they start dating? "JOHN!" Lauren screamed and I snapped out of my daze and looked at her. "What the hell is wrong with you? You've been all weird since Kenzie and Mark left." I grew angry when she said it but kept myself under control. "I just don't like Mark, and I don't want him around Mackenzie." Lauren laughed, "What're you jealous?" My face got hot. "No I'm not jealous. I'm just worried about her is all. And they're always talking to each other." she laughed again. "You mean you're worried about her because she's friends with Mark? Because he's actually nice to her? Get over yourself and stop being ridiculous, if you were nice to her she would hang out with you. But you aren't, so stop." I just sighed, "Whatever Lauren." I mumbled and went back to eating my food.

Mackenzie

I had a really nice time with Mark. He made me eat a salad but it was okay because I had such a great time with him. He parked in the driveway and I looked at the time. "Holy shit it's 11:34!" I said and he laughed. "Yeah, it's late but I had a great time with you," I looked over at him and he was staring at me with a smile. I couldn't help but to smile back at him. "You ready?" he asked and I nodded. We both got out of the car and walked to the front of the house and he unlocked the front door. When we got in I went upstairs but stopped at the top. "Hey Mark!" he looked up at me, "Thank you for tonight. I was having a bad day and you made it a lot better." he smiled, "No problem. I'd like to do it again sometime." I smiled back and nodded before going to my room. I changed into a black t shirt, black leggings, and black socks. I wanted to get rid of the salad but I was just so worn out that I couldn't. As soon as I was done pulling on my second sock, I collapsed into my bed and sighed. I crawled in and wrapped myself in the blankets. As I was drifting off to sleep someone knocked on my door. I groaned to signal them to come in and they did. "Hey Kenz," it was Johnny. I groaned once more. He closed it and sat in the chair that he usually does. "You're tired huh?" "Mhm," I wish he'd just go away. He didn't say anything after that so I reluctantly sat up and looked at him. He was staring at me which was odd. "Why were you bleeding earlier?" I rolled my eyes and fell back onto the bed. "I already told you,"

"Yeah, but, it wasn't the truth and I want the truth." "Why? Why do you care about me?" he stood up and walked over to the bed. He sat next to me and I sat up to see him. I've never really looked at Johnny closely before, his eyes are beautiful. "Why can't I just care about you? Why does there have to be a reason?" "Well, you're freaking me out. And I know the reason already. I know this is all just a ploy to get me to trust you so you can do something. I'm not that stupid, Johnny. I know people like you, I've been burned by many people that are exactly like you. I don't want anything to do with it so please, stop. Stop this fake kindness and go back to who you really are. I'd rather you hurt me all the time over you pretending to be my friend then just stabbing me in the back." he just stared at me until I finished. When I was done he took my hand in his and I shuddered at his touch. My cold ones were instantly warmed by his that were warm and soft. "I'm not tricking you, Mackenzie. I really am sorry for everything that I did." he seemed sincere but, I can't trust him. I can't. Not after I trusted Hayden. Not after I trusted Emily, my best friend who ended up just like the rest of them. Not after I trusted Bryce, not after I trusted Sasha, not after I trusted Seth. No, I can't trust Johnny. I only trust Annie and Brynn and I don't even fully trust them, even though they've been with me for two years. "Mackenzie?" Johnny said and I was snapped out of my thoughts. "Sorry I was just thinking about something," I replied, taking my hand out of his. He sighed and broke the eye contact. "Tomorrow I'm walking with you into school." My eyes widened when he said this. "N-No. No. You can't." "Yes I can Mackenzie. I can protect you." "No!" I shouted and stood up. "I don't trust you. You'll do something, this is a trick. I'm not going to fall for it." "Kenz I'm not-" he started but I cut him off. "No John, no! I'm fine with Annie and Brynn. You're not going to get me." he looked hurt but he just stood up and left. A part of me was sad to see him go but the other part was relieved. He can't get me, he won't get me. I told myself this over and over again before finally drifting into a deep sleep.