Hoseok said he had to go home, he walked out the door. I still have his words in my head from earlier. I kept thinking how messed up I am. I couldn't take it anymore. I went up to my room and grabbed one of my knifes and just started cutting. One, two, three.... I left about ten on each arm. Until I heard the front door open. I heard Hoseoks voice from downstairs, " y/n I think I left my phone here......." he walked into the room, I dropped the knife and cried.
He ran to me and held me in his arms. I felt tears hit my shoulder, "why?" He whispered, " why, would you do this?" I just cried.
"I'm sorry" was all I could say.
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He cleaned my cuts and bandaged them. We said nothing.
"So.....you going to tell me why?" He looked at me.
"I'm....messed up. I have a sick mind. I hate myself. I feel like dying inside. I'm not worth being alive!" More tears came down my cheeks.
He looked at me tearing up,
"NO! You are worth it, you are not messed up. Your not sick. I love you. Please, I'm begging you. Please don't leave me!!" He was crying harder now. " please.......don't leave me"
"Ok"
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We cuddled on the couch. I had changed into a long sweat shirt and some pajama shorts. We decided we weren't going to talk about earlier anymore. We had settled that, that will never happen again.
We put on 'FRIENDS' and had a marathon. It was so funny because we both knew every line to each episode.
I did all Ross, chandlers and phoebes parts and he did, Rachel's, joeys and Monica's. We would laugh after every line. He wasn't only my boyfriend but my best friend.
This story is a little sad. I was crying while writing it. Hope y'all like it though. It's probably my theird fav out of all. I💜y'all
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FanfictionA girl with Major anger issues moves from America to Korea and meets a boy that ends up being the only one that makes her calm and feel safe
