SECRET HEART ❁ JACKSON FULLER

Wedding or Not Here We Come ♛

IM POSTING TWO CHAPTERS TODAY BECAUSE THIS ONE IS SO SHORT SO DO NOT WORRY!!!

Farrah's POV

"Okay kids we are leaving for Japan in five hours." Dj said, walking into the living room, "I wanna check your bags and I want to see your socks."

"What?" I asked

"As you go through TSA, your feet are representing this family and our country." Dj cleared up

"As you can see, I've arranged my outfits by day, weather, and itinerary. Do I have time to retake my passport picture? My bangs are a disaster." Max said, showing off his organized suitcase

"Well, you're the one who told the barber 'Surprise me" Dj said, "Jackson are you packed?"

"Yup." Jackson nodded, picking up a trash bag.

"That's a garbage bag." I noted

"Yep." He agreed, showing no attempt to put his clothes in a suitcase

"And these clothes are dirty." Dj continued, dumping them out of the bag

"Mom! Now I've got to repack." He said

"I'll handle this. Come on, Jackson. Let's go do some laundry. We'll separate your whites from your colors and then Max can hand wash your delicates." I said

"I have delicates?" Jackson asked

A few hours later, Jackson, Ramona and I walked downstairs ready to leave.

"Alright, were ready. Bye Tommy." Ramona said

We all smiled at the toddler before getting in the car that was headed for the airport

Once we got checked in and made our way through security, we got to the worst part...the plane.

I've had an intense fear of flying since I was child, and an eleven hour flight wasn't really the best thing for it.

Jackson and I took the two seats beside one another and attempted to get comfortable.

He attempted to comfort me as the plane took off, but he quickly fell asleep as his movie played.

I tapped my foot and thought about my feelings for the boy, attempting to get my mind off of the slight turbulence

I've crushed on Jackson for so long, and the closest thing he's ever shown to returning feelings was the one kiss we shared.

But he also acted like it never happened as soon as it was over.

If I couldn't work up the nerves to tell him how I feel, then it's probably best that I move on.

Maybe it's just the nerves, but as of right now I don't see anything happening between us.

The situation continued the bother me, as I shifted around in my seat. Steph sat in the aisle across from the two of us, so I unbuckled my belt to rush over and talk to her

I quickly convinced Matt to switch, so I could talk to Steph and get myself strapped back in as soon as possible.

"What's wrong?" Steph asked as I nervously buckled up

"Everything. I still can't work up the courage to tell Jackson how I feel, and he hasn't shown an interest for me. It's like he only sees my as a sister." I confessed

She nodded her head, signaling she was listening. I struggled to sort my nerves from confessing my feelings and the impending feeling of death 30,000 feet in the air

"And while that hurts me so much, there's nothing I can do. I can't change how he feels, but I can't change what I feel, either. I feel like I failed." I said, staring at my feet

"This is really tearing you up, huh?" She asked

I nodded in approval, leaning to rest my head against the back of the airplane seat.

"Okay listen, at first I wasn't sure I wanted Jimmy to be the father of my baby. I thought it would strain our relationship, just like you think telling Jackson will strain yours. But then Jimmy came on the plane and proved to me with words and action that he could really do this. So, maybe Jackson doesn't see you the way you want him to or maybe he does, but you'll never know unless you try." She ranted, obviously getting more passionate as she went on

I smiled at her, although I was still upset, "Maybe you're right. Thanks, Steph."

She smiled at me as I quickly unbuckled and rushed to get back to my seat.

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No authors note because I'm posting another chapter.