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Chapter 37: Secrets and Sins

Once we got home, I placed Brynn in her crib, she needed to sleep.
I couldn't stop thinking about Alicia. Did Jake and her used to date?
Too concentrated on my thoughts, I didn't notice that Jake walked into the living room. Jake was talking on the phone since we got home a hour ago, so I've just been killing time.
Wrapping his arms around my torso, Jake buried his head in my neck, "are you okay baby?"
No.
Looking at my hands so he wouldn't sense my nervousness, I mumbled softly, "yes I'm fine."
Not seeming convinced by my response, he started to tease me by biting and kissing my neck, leaving faint hickeys on my skin.
I groaned when he got to a certain spot on my neck.
Tilting my head to give him more access, he continued his assault on my skin.
His teeth pulled at my skin, leaving me groaning and moaning.
Finally, I gave in, "okay Jake."
A smirk played on his lips, "okay baby. What's the matter?"
Biting my lip softly, I whispered sadly, "did you ever date or use her body?"
He pulled me onto his lap comfortingly. "First of all, I was a virgin before you; I didn't believe in sex being just sex. I may have met her once or twice but we've dated."
Kissing his lips softly, I smiled up at him, "thanks for reassuring me that you would never date that bitch."
He chuckled lowly, "Why did you even think I'd waste my time on her? Girls like her are only after one thing."
His dark brown eyes showed concern as he looked into my blue ones.
I sighed, refusing to make eye contact with him, "Ryder always assured me that he'd never touch me if I didn't want to because I wasn't ready. He always told me that those were just friends that he never dated, but they weren't. Those girls were his play toys that he threw away when he was done with them, just like me," I choked out.
His arms circled around my waist, bringing me to his chest, "I promise you I'd never do that you, I fucking love you baby. I would never date Alicia, and I would definitely not give it to her because sex wasn't a game to me, it was real. I never regretted having it with you because with you, I wasn't just sex. I'm yours and no one else's."
I nodded, hugging him back.
I hated being this insecure, thinking that Jake will get tired of me and do the same thing Ryder did. I know he loves me, and would never rape me, but a small part of me will always feel that way.
"I can't wait for you to be my wife, baby," Jake smiled.
Smiling in return, I nodded, "me too Jake."
Standing up, we both stated at our little miracle in the crib. People say I'm young, but I don't regret it. It was my choice to get pregnant, and it was mine to keep it.
Brynn was two and a half months old now, and already a daddy's girl. I couldn't deny I was jealous, but I was a daddy's girl too so I can't really blame her.
Plus, have you seen Jake? No wonder she likes him better than me.
"Can you imagine multiple kids running around on Christmas Eve in a few years, maybe next?" Jake smirked michevously.
"Calm down Jake. Maybe in a few years, but I don't know about next."
"Why?" He whined childishly, "we'll be married by then. You know how much I love kids!"
Shaking my head, I laughed, "trust me I know, but Brynn will only be a year by then."
Jake and I decided to get married when she was three months, so next week.
Jake couldn't wait, he was practically practicing how he was gonna say I do.
He wrapped his arms around me tightly, "It'll be okay Brooklyn," he gave me a forced smile.
He barely ever calls me Brooklyn, what's wrong with him?
"Jake-"
Giving a strained laugh, he replied, "it's nothing Brooklyn." My name tasted like poison on his lips; I hated it. I knew he wanted more kids, but right now? He already has Brynn.
Shoving his hands in his pockets, he left Brynn's room, shutting the door behind him.
Sliding down the wall, I couldn't help the tears that fell from my eyes. He's mad at me for wanting to wait until Brynn is a little older.
Brynn started to cry softly, so I took her out of her crib, holding her in my arms.
"Daddy is mad at me Brynn, and I can't understand why. Is one kid not enough for him?"
Making baby noises, she reached for my finger, "I love you baby girl. I just hope your father isn't gonna leave, and I have to raise you alone. I love him too much for that Brynn."
Feeling arms wrap around me, I instinctively leaned back, "I'm not going to go anywhere baby."
"You heard that?" I asked surprised.
He chuckled, "yep. I was right outside the door."
Wiping my tears, I smiled, "I thought you were mad at me."
"I'm not. I just can't wait that long to touch you," he sighed. We never used any protection because we never felt it was right to prevent the miracle of a baby.
"If it comes, it comes I guess," I shrugged, "but I do wanna wait till after the wedding."
He grinned, "okay."
If only I knew it wasn't possible to wait that long.....
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I'm not really sure what the sins part meant in the chapter tiltle, but whatever. Two weeks until the wedding, and three weeks until school starts back. I might make a college chapter, I haven't decided yet. Can you guess what I meant by that comment at the end? Well you'll firgue it out either next chapter or the next, the wedding chapter.