little by little | jungkook

eighteen

song: all night ~ astro

'when i close my eyes, i can draw you out,
i like it .'
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mi na p.o.v.

i stepped back suddenly while letting jungkook's words set in.

i told him this would never work so why did he keep pursuing it?

the thing is i wanted it too.

but we promised to wait for each other.

i stared at the back of his head as he looked out onto the water.

"j-jungkook...we're just friends...we've talked about this before, i-"

"well let's talk about it again," he said before turning around and giving me a serious look.

i had never seen him like this before.

"i have tried everything, everything, to get your attention. to show you i have feelings and you know that." he said not breaking eye contact with me.

i dropped my head not wanting to see him this way.

"jungkook. i-"

"no. hear me out. i know you're scared but i am too. i'm scared that if we do start this i won't be able to live up to your expectations because you're...perfect. i'm scared that i won't satisfy you in ways that you want me to but please." he reached out his hands and with habit, i put mine in his.

my small hands in his made me shut my eyes tightly.

i wanted this so bad. more than ever. but i don't know.

"why, why?" i said back my voice breaking.

he was getting to me and i didn't want that. i didn't want him to know that i felt the same way because then that meant i was betraying sehun. and i just couldn't.

he brought his head down to match my eyes which were down.

"every night when i would drop you off, i would just sit in my car and think about how i couldn't believe that i had the opportunity to look at you," i heard him pause and i looked up to see him smiling and laughing lightly, "i would actually have to tell myself to calm down as funny as that sounds."

i couldn't help but smile back and i looked up slowly.

"i swear if you just give me a chance i'll prove to you it's worth it."

"but there's things about me that you just wouldn't understand." i said looking back down.

he brought his head back down again to meet my eyes and when realizing i wouldn't lift my head up, he got down on one knee to make it easier for himself and he put one hand on my chin lifting it up.

"then help me understand."

i took a deep breath.

"...do you really do that after dropping me off?" i said smiling softly and dragging my feet in small circles.

he quickly stood up and pushed me lightly saying, "i knew i shouldn't have brought that up."

i pushed him back smiling, "it's cute, don't worry."

i could see a smile form on his face and it was perfect.

i loved seeing him this happy.

and if we could both bring happiness into each other's lives then why not try out this whole relationship thing.

i looked away from him and out into the water.

"why this place?" i said not turning back around.

"huh?" he asked not paying attention.

"i said why this place?" i responded back while turning around to see him staring at me.

i couldn't help but look down and hide my face in my hands.

"stop." i mumbled not looking up.

"no," i could hear his voice echo lightly next to my ear. i hadn't realized he had come so close to me.

i could feel the hairs on my arms stand up and my body suddenly become warm.

just his voice alone turned me on and i didn't understand why.

i could tell that he knew what he was doing to me at that moment so he grabbed my hand dragging me back in the same direction we came from.

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we sat in his car and i swung my feet around, looking out the window on my side not wanting to make eye contact with him.

suddenly i watched as he harshly ran his fingers through his hair before bringing his body forward towards me, our breathing in sync.

"tell me you're mine." he whispered close to my face and i could once again feel my body heat up.

i wanted to say it so badly but i knew i couldn't.

with every second i wasted not responding back, i could feel his face come closer and closer, nearly to the point our lips were brushing against each other.

i looked him in the eyes and then down at his lips, quickly bringing my eyes back up hoping he would understand what i was asking for.

jungkook p.o.v.

i watched as she looked at me desperately, already knowing what she wanted.

just the look on her eyes made me feel crazy.

too crazy.

before i knew it, i took my left hand and firmly wrapped it around her neck watching as she bent her head back quickly while revealing a smile.

she brought her head back forward and her lips approached mine but didn't connect.

she sat there, observing my face with a look on her own face.

a look that said she wanted me.

and i wanted her too.

i didn't wait for her to make the first move so i connected our lips slowly but gently. after a while, i ran my tongue across her bottom lip asking for permission. it didn't take long for her to allow me and it became heated from there.

i tightened my grip on her neck and i felt her let out a loud moan with our lips still connected. i wanted to feel this all the time but only with her.

she disconnected our lips and started breathing heavy.

her face still stayed close to mine and i observed her as she kept her eyes shut with a smile on her face.

i really liked this girl.

she then grabbed my hand by the wrist that was still wrapped around her neck and brought it down. she proceeded to bringing her lips close to my ear and whispering,

"i'm all yours, just say the words."

and i said it.

"you're mine and only mine."

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woo hoo!!! i'm super excited cause i'm gonna write so much more often now since i just finished my midterm exams and once second semester starts the year's practically over for seniors!!! can't wait & hope you guys will like the rest .