Five months ago today
You cried when you saw me in that dress
You raved to my siblings about how beautiful I was
Five months ago today
Around this exact time
We were on our way to the mall to get that special dress
And we laughed and sang our hearts out on the drive there
And I made sure you could see me in the car door mirror
I often looked back at you and smiled
Five months ago today
I was so, incredibly happy
In a way I can not begin to describe
I took the wheel for my sister as she was driving
And you looked at us in shock and closed your eyes, laughing
You always joked about how bad of a driver she was
Five months ago today
We were on top of the world
And that night in my dress,
You asked me to go to that special event with you
The event I needed the dress for in the first place
Five months ago today
We floated on a lighthearted trail
Of getting lost in each other's eyes
That was the most smiley I had been
In such a long time
Five months ago today
It was you and me against the world
And nothing could come between us
We were each other's everything
We depended on each other
We provided balance for one another
Like the sun and the moon
Five months ago today
Our intimacy had reached it's peek
And I thought I could only get better from there
And I was so thankful that you had come into my life
Because I prayed for someone like you to come along for months
And when you finally did,
I smiled and thanked the Heavens for the blessing that was all of who you were and everything that came with that
Five months later
You are nowhere to be found
Lost among this sea of faces
Passing by me without a word
Five months later
And my world is completely different now
Even the weather has changed
From the brisk breeze of premature summer air
To the wilting of vibrant fall
You have left for someone knew
And you will be with her this time around
Five months later
My heart has been ripped out of my chest
And it hurts to see you with her at the lockers
Every time I look into your eyes
The wound is reopened
And I have to find a knew way to stop the bleeding
Five months later
And you have changed for the worse
You used me and didn't even realize it
You played the victim and begged me to stay
You turned toxic
And it still feels like poison every time I say that out loud
Because it feels so wrong to call you the opposite of what you used to be
Five months later
It's a few weeks before this year's special event
And I still have to get my dress
10-18-18
YOU ARE READING
To the one I loved the most
PoetryMy heart was broken and so I wrote these poems. I hope you find comfort and healing within them <3
