Rainy Madness

Chapter 33

My mind was in chaos right now. Everything was clear yesterday and I was so happy pero kabaliktaran nito ang araw ko ngayon. It was puzzled dahil narin kay Rav. I don’t know what happen to him, we made conclusion about what might he saw kaya ganun nalang ang reaction niya when he saw me.

I tried calling him and texting him pero wala. Carlos told us that they were together last night and he’s drunk and pained to something. We searched for him pero tita Emily told us that he wanted to be away for a while and just let him be ‘cause he looks bothered to something.

So I decided to maybe he really needs time now. It’s just so bothering lalo na iniisip ko na I’m at fault on why he is like that. Hindi siya nag tanong basta nasaktan siya kaya lumayo siya agad. I know it was a selfish move pero he has a right to do it.

And now hearing Brianna telling me that he’s with Rayver yesterday parang may kumirot nanaman sa puso ko. I won’t conclude and maybe I need to talk to her this time. Para matapos na ang lahat ng to.

“Ray went to my house yesterday afternoon and we talk… we talk about what really happen in our past… at naayos naman namin iyon… so I’m here today to say sorry Rain… sorry kung kinulit ko si Carlos para makausap kalang… hindi rin naman kasi ako mapapanatag pa kung hindi ko man lang nasasabi ang mga ito sayo… I made so many mistakes in your life and I have no excuse for that… and I’m sorry Rain… I’m sorry for all the bad things I did sayo at sainyo ni Ray” napa ngiti naman ako sa sinabi nito.

“and Ray accepted my apologies as well… sabi ko in time na mag karon ng pag kakataon na makausap kita, hihingi ako agad ng tawad… and I even plan to say sorry in social media after we talked” dugtong pa nito.

“you don’t have to Bri. Kahit hindi ka mag sorry napatawad na kita. You have your reasons and I respect that. I was hurt sa totoo lang pero I know how you feel. Minsan kasi when we are in pain we decided to do everything para lang makaganti without thinking. But thank you… thank you for personally apologizing Bri. Nakakagaan sa pakiramdam. And sorry din kasi nasaktan kadin namin unintentionally” ngiti naman nito sakin.

“now I know how lucky Ray is when she has you… you both deserve each other Rain… I know how happy he is and also how happy you are with him… he was never like that to me… I never saw him that happy kahit nung unang maging kami. Kaya sana na ngayon maayos na ang lahat… wishing you both happines” hawak nito sa kamay ko. Nakakatuwa lang kasi nag kakilala kami sa hindi magandang pag kakataon at nasaktan pa halos ang isa’t isa pero eto kami ngayon halos naluluha pa sa kasiyahan.

“sana… pero I’m giving him his space right now… maybe in time”

“nag away kayo? Agad? Bakit?” takang tanong naman nito sakin.

“not really sure. Basta hindi na siya bumalik kahapon then umiwas siya kanina when he saw me. Kaya rin kami nag punta kay tita Emily dahil hinahanap nga namin siya”

“I think you know where he is” ngiting ngiti nito sakin. “alam mo bang never ko napuntahan ang resort niya na yun?… panay kwento lang hanggang sa nag pla-plano at nauuwi sa drawing” natawa naman akong bahagya rito.

“it’s your choice if you’re gonna let him… hindi karin matitiis nun panigurado. Baka nag pabebe lang” tawa nito sakin. “I won’t take long Rain. May pupuntahan padin ako. Thank you for your time. Sana in time pag maayos na ang lahat kahit papano naman maging mag kaibigan tayo”

“of course. Okay sakin yun. Thank you din” nag paalam naman nadin sa akin ito. We ended our talk sa isang friendly hug. Sumunod naman itong nag paalam kay Jescy saka na ito umalis.

Jes got intrested agad kaya lumapit sa akin saka naman ako pinag kwento. Nakakatuwa lang na ang bilis ng pangyayari sa lahat ng ito. Pero ganun din pala itong maayos lahat. Communication is the key to every problem or at least share it lalo na sa family at hindi muna kaya. Kasi kahit natatakot tayong mag sabi sa pamilya natin mas may alam silang solusyon na makakatulong sayo.

I remember what Brianna told me. That Rav never brought Brianna there sa island kung saan kami nag bakasyon ng ilang araw. I was thinking kung pupuntahan koba siya or I’ll let him be.

Right after ko sa restaurant ni Jes ay umuwi na agad ako sa bahay. I was thinking on what should I do or should I do what I want too. So I tried calling him again pero patay ang cellphone nito.

I need to make a move now that everything is okay. Hindi ko alam kung anong pwede kong datnan dun o kung andun nga ba talaga ito. But still I need to step up para sa amin. It’s my time to prove to him what I really feel dahil yun nalang naman ang kulang.

I packed clothes and informed my security na aalis kami. I even call someone to help me find a boat that I can rent to take me to the island. I even informed my mom na pupuntahan ko si Rav and tell her what happen sa pag uusap namin ni Nathaniel and Brianna.

Mom was happy about the news dahil kahit papano daw ay magiging panatag na ako sa nangyaring issue sakin and every thing is clear now. I deserve to be happy kaya she will let me sa desisyon ko ngayon to follow Rav.

When we’re on our way napag pasyahan ko namang mag bukas ng social media. Nag kalat parin ang papuri samin sa internet and how that made them our fan. They are to happy and saying how deserving are we to that happiness kaya medyo na overwhelm ako.

And what surprise me is that the tags that Brianna posted for me and Rav. Though I told her that hindi naman na kailangan pang mag post siya online pero she still did it.

She said sorry and how grateful she is na nakausap ako ng maayos and how I accept everything that she did and how I forgave her easily. She even wishes us happiness and guidance and full of love. Nag post nadin tuloy ako and answered her.

‘@BriannaSegovya as I told you earlier I knew you have reasons that’s why I do understand you. Thank you as well and sorry if you felt pain on what happen. Hope to have a bond the next time that we’re both free sa lahat ng hassle sa buhay. Wishing you good luck sa dream mo and career. See you soon!! Xoxo’

Pag ka post ko nito ay nag scroll nalang naman din ako at ng mag sawa na ay nag log out nadin ako. Jes called immediately siguro right after niya itong mabasa at nag yayaya nga for dinner.

I told her I can’t ‘cause I’m on my way to Rav and hoping na sana andun nga siya. Pinag iingat naman ako nito and wishes me good luck. At dun naman natapos ang tawag nito sa akin.

I also tried again for the nth time to call Rav but still out of coverage ito. Na scan ko nga ang social media niya pero wala naman siyang kahit na anong post. Parang last post niya was when he is at the bar drinking with his friends a month ago.

Sobrang kinakabahan din ako sa gagawin ko pero kailangan konang itaya lahat para matapos na. wala man siya dun at least I tried kesa mag isip ng kung ano ano habang hinihintay siyang bumalik.

Nang makarating kami sa may pier ay inalalayan na kami agad na makapunta sa yacht na narentahan namin. Yun nalang din kasi ang available at kakayanin pang bumyahe dahil madilim na. sumakay nadin naman kami agad kasama ang security ko saka namin binaybay ang dagat.

Sa totoo lang takot ako. Kasi ang dilim na at kahit payapa ang dagat natatakot padin ako. Sumabay pa ang kaba ko ng palapit kami ng palapit sa isla. Mukhang nasabihan nadin ang mga tao doon ng coast guard dahil tanaw ko sila nanay Be na nakaabang sa pang-pang. Binati ko naman agad ang mga ito pag kalapit.

“pasensya napo nanay kung late na ako naka dating tsaka huli nadin ang paabiso” hingi ko ng tawad rito.

“wala iyon hija. Halika na sa loob at malamig na. nakapag handa nadin ako ng dinner mo” yaya naman nito sakin.

“salamat po nanay. Nasa loob po ba si Rayver?” taka nitong tingin sakin.

“wala siya dito hija! Akala ko nga ay kasama mo siya ngayon eh” napahinto naman ako sa pag lalakad sa pag sagot nito sakin. At least I tried.