Jungkook 's whole body was trembling especially his hands as he opened the water furnace to wash his face after he had thrown up his dinner and insides.
He then took a drying towel from the towel rack and dried his face. He took what seemed like an eternity staring himself in the mirror. He wasn't stupid. He knew exactly what was wrong with him. He could feel it in his bones but how was he going to explain it to his husband. They weren't intimate ever since Jungkook had his second miscarriage. He felt like dying by just thinking about the stigma when other people find out.
He was devastated and shattered. It was as if the whole world was closing in on him. One thing that came to mind was running away from his messed up life. Nothing could be more shameful than getting pregnant by your husband 's brother.
When he opened the door Namjoon was staring right at him. It was Jungkook 's third and he wasn't missing anything. In fact he was certain that Jungkook was pregnant but whose was it?,he wondered with mounting anger.
"Hyung...."Jungkook swallowed dryly.
"Jungkook we are going to the hospital now. You aren't going to work. "
"But...I'm. ."
"Just stop lying Jungkook. We are going to get it confirmed then we can talk about it from there "
Jungkook swallowed dryly once again as his eyes were brimming with tears .This was definitely the end for him. He was going to lose the baby like he always did and before that he would have lost his husband.He was fiddling with his fingers as his hand occasionally went to pat his flat belly.
As they were on their way Jungkook didn't feel like crying at all. He didn't have the right. His husband didn't even look at him. There was a glimpse of hope that Jungkook wasn't carrying another man 's child. A part of him hoped that it was just his misconception. He wanted to trust Jungkook.
Upon arriving at the hospital both their nightmares came true.
"Jungkook, crying won't solve anything now. Who is the father. You need to tell him "
"I won't tell him.I don't even want the baby either "he sobbed.
"Jungkook, you know that if you lose it then you won't ever have kids in the future. This is your last chance and then your body wouldn't be able to take it anymore "Namjoon reminded.
"I'm aware. I just can't bear the guilty growing up inside me.It will eat me alive "
"I know you don't want to tell him but please keep it. We will raise him together just you and I. I should be apologizing to you for what my brother did "Namjoon 's demeanor had changed drastically.
Jungkook was bewildered. "You knew all along. Why didn't you say anything. Why didn't you do anything. Did you want to protect your brother that much? "Jungkook was hysterical.
"I'm sorry Jungkook but mom wouldn't have been able to bear it and Taehyung isn't even aware of what he did.I saw you running out of his room that night. I had gone to drink with him and I guess he had gotten a little too much .In a way it's my fault "
"It wasn't the alcohol but his hatred for me.He hates me that much so he decided to punish me but you still want to stick up for him "Jungkook protested as he was laying on the hospital bed with his hand on his belly.
"Jungkook, look. We have both been wanting a child for a long time now. It might not be mine but above all isn't it yours.Isn't it growing in your womb. I really don't have a problem with raising Taehyung 's child as my own "
"Maybe I get you but what if I miscarry it again. I just don't want you to get your hopes up over nothing "
"This time I'm confident "
"Thank you. You are too nice. People might take advantage of you like I did. I'm really sorry .It must be alwful for you "
Jungkook knew that his husband was hurt beyond words. Three years was time long enough to get to know him.
He was a clean cut man casually elegant, always nonchalant, even when his heart was bleeding. His emotions were so well covered that when he did reveal them, it was a shock.
Jungkook wished that he had let him abort it and then maybe his heart would be less burdened. He was ready to walk out of the marriage on his own. What was the world and his father going to think of him?
"It's okay Jungkook. We are keeping it aren't we?"Namjoon flashed his rare dimpled smile.
"Just for you "Jungkook murmured.
When they got home Namjoon was so clearly overjoyed at the prospect of becoming a father. Only if the heavens would allow him.
Hyuna studied Jungkook curiously. On close scrutiny, he appeared wary and on edge reminding Hyuna of herself of a lifetime ago when she had discovered that she was pregnant by the man she had grown to detest.It was an old ugly story.
Jungkook hated lying to anyone especially his mother in law who had done so much for him. He hated lying just so he could save his and Taehyung 's skin. The absolute truth was going to ruin so many lives including the baby 's.
Of course they all agreed on not telling Taehyung anything. He would only make a scene that would affect Jungkook 's health and that was the last thing they needed. Namjoon was just too kind for his own good .He was too pure for this world.
From there on Namjoon stopped being liniet with Taehyung. He stopped overlooking the younger 's mistakes. He gave him some work to do out of town so that he wouldn't get a chance to mess with Jungkook. What he gave him was known as tough love so he would be responsible. Taehyung thought that his brother was just getting back at him for not liking his husband. Petty and mean , he thought .Even Hyuna could see that her sons relationship wasn't still the same. Taehyung had his own work but Namjoon insisted that he do anything that wasn't art.Their family business was real estate. They had about ten building complexities in Seoul. A mall and farms in remote area.
It wasn't Taehyung 's cup of tea but he did it anyways only because he respected his brother. He would only come back home after three months only for a few days.
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It ain't me (Taekook)
FanfictionJungkook's marriage of three years with his once windowed husband is threatened by his brother in law that he had never knew.
