Touch In The Dark (MxM) ✓ *editing on hold.

I Like Men or not...?*

Rune's POV is pretty short here, please don't mind that for now XD

Rune

The look that Tan had on his face was driving me crazy, the expressions of both pleasure and frustration that riddled his face. His eyes begging me to touch him, to relieve him, but his mouth ordering me not to, the feeling was exhilarating. I ignored my better judgement and focused on the pulsing cock I held in my hand, brushing my thumb over the head, earning a raspy moan from the owner. The sound of his moans sends a different sensation down to my navel, waves of heat followed with tingles that left me with too many questions which I had no answers to, after all, I'd never felt this way with a guy before. I didn't understand why I was suddenly aroused by the sound of another man's pleasure; maybe the alcohol has affected me more than I thought. I was torn between want my body thirsted for and what my mind desperately shouted at me to avoid. This perpetual internal war ultimately me drove me to get the hell out of the shower before i did something I knew I'd regret.

Tan

Rune leaving made me feel more confused than anything else. What was i supposed to think? What did you think when a straight grabs your  penis and looks like wants to fuck you?

After a few minutes, I got out of the shower and into my own bed. Rune already lay on his bed, his steady breathing signaling he'd fallen asleep already. Many thoughts ran through my mind that night, I thought of many things and that included the whole shower thing. I could still feel his fingers around my member...i just didn't understand what he was thinking through all of it, for some reason I could still recall the look of shock that was intermingled with something else, maybe disgust? I couldn't comprehend any of it and it only hurts my brain. The only logical answer was the alcohol and so I stuck with that. I wake up in the morning with a pounding head; I instantly regret my decision to drink so much as I massage my temple with my index finger.

"Take this",

I look up to see Rune handing me a pill and a glass of water, I immediately took the two "thanks" I tell him without looking up. After a few moments, the events of the night before replay in my mind like a quick recap of a movie, everything from getting drunk and the fight to the last minutes of our late shower. I look up at Rune once more and noticed his bruised knuckles from the kitchen where he was making breakfast. It was an amazing thing that Rune could cook in the first place, if you look at him, you could never imagine a man like him chopping vegetables. His large hands seem almost unfit for such a task.

"Thank you for last night"

Just as the words leave my mouth, Rune's gaze snaps towards me "what?" he asks, terror evident in his eyes. "You know..." I trail off and Rune dropped the knife he was holding in his hand, he approaches me quickly; each step making me feel like I was one step closer to my death. He stopped in front of me, his eyes so dark and cold that it made him shiver,"forget about it, it never happened," he spat. His words were shocking, I stare at him in bewilderment, what was Rune talking about? Beating up that guy at the bar was a big deal, he'd even hurt his hands during the whole process of it.

"Aren't you overreacting?" I ask only to be shoved roughly against the wall, knocking the air right out of my chest, "did you not hear me?" he growls, his tone carrying an emotion I'd never seen on him-it was terrifying. "I don't understand," but that answer only further induces anger into Rune who was at the edge of his patience, "whatever happened in the shower never happened, understood?"

Now I was confused, what happened in the shower? All I remember was us in the shower after returning from the bar and going to bed soon after. "What are you talking about? You helping me in the bar didn't happen in a shower" I clarify and within a second, Rune's expression changes and relief appears on his face. "My mistake" he says as if he hadn't just manhandled me a few seconds ago, "stupid fucker" I mutter in annoyance, i felt the urge to smack him twice then punch him, who was he to be shoving me at walls. I thought better of it, maybe he was going through something. Rune responds with a half-smile, "sorry about shoving you like that'' but I simply shrug my shoulders.

As the day went on, I couldn't shake the feeling that there was something off about him. I knew this because he looked like something was going to happen and he'd be very short tempered, the smallest of an issue for him was like the whole world had ended. I didn't bother to ask him, I knew I'd get the usual answer which was always 'nothing'. But I couldn't help but wonder if it had something to do with the shower thing that Rune yelled about this morning. I'd been racking my mind for the forgotten event but i turned up empty-handed, or empty-minded, no matter how hard i tried.

We ate in an awkward silence; the air was tense to the point I felt almost suffocated. I put the chopsticks down and looked straight at Rune, noticing my stare, he looked up as well "what?" he asks and I sigh, "What's up with you?"

"Nothing" he answered, as usual, but his expression gave him away.

Somehow, it'd become a natural thing for me to read his expressions rather than to rely on whatever he said, Rune always did a bad job of hiding his emotions, it often gave him away, especially in situations like this. "You know you can tell me? You've been anxious the whole day" I ask him in worry, "you're not my fucking girlfriend, so stop nagging like one" he blurts out; I didn't know what to say. I hid my anger well, "you know what Rune? fuck off, i'm not the one here whose acting like a little bitch" I retort, my whole body was fueled with anger as i roughly took out some bills and left it at the table before leaving, i knew if i didn't leave i would've punched him in the face.

Was it wrong to ask someone what was troubling them? it seemed it was in Rune's case. Who was he to talk to me the way he did? I swallow the empty anger and breathe out. I shouldn't waste my breath on that idiot.

Rune

Since Tan is in the dorm, I have no interest to go back there, at least for the time being. I was sorry, I didn't mean to be such an ass to him but currently, i wasn't at the right state of mind. My emotions were all over the place; especially with my new found sexual attraction for him that only seems to grow the more I saw him. I figured I'd just move out but the thought of never being able to see the idiot didn't help much. I drag my palm down my face, I didn't understand what it was that made me so intrigued with him, why was I finding that whenever he smiled, I felt happy. Even when he's angry and being obnoxious or when he was just being so goddamn annoying, all I want is to be near him no matter how much he provokes me. Sure i sound like a masochist, enjoying even the physical pain he gives me as long he's touching me. I felt I could endure any pain as long as Tan was with me and that feeling scares me, we barely know each other and this is how I already felt about him.

Somehow, I found myself sitting at the nearby bar drinking my feelings away, i want to forget it all, even if it is just for a few hours. As i drink, a girl sat beside me on the stools and i couldn't help but be almost taken away by her beauty, didn't that mean i wasn't in fact gay? The girl turned to face me but i ignore her, i was already too engrossed with thoughts of my sexuality to care about the looks the girl was giving me, but then it hit me, what better way to see whether or not i was gay, than to have sex with this girl? Determined, I face the girl and flash my killer smile.

I leave the bar with my heart aching in my chest, to the point that all I want to do is to tear it out to relieve the feeling. I felt as if I were betraying a huge part of myself that wanted only Tan under me, moaning at my touches, screaming only my name, touching and caring for only me. At least my conquest proved that i was still attracted to women, so did that mean i'm bisexual? Whatever I am, at least I have figured out what I want and I don't care what others think of me, because one thing is for sure, i want Tan.

--------Hope you liked it, thanks for getting this far!