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64: life is a bitch
RYU
I am an idiot.
I smiled all by myself for no apparent reason.
Well, meron talaga. Napapangiti ako kapag naaalala ang asawa ko. But still that makes me look like a damn idiot.
Inayos ko ang pagkakahanay ng mga citronella at lavender candles sa sa paligid, just so it could add effect to the romantic ambiance. I even throw some rose petals on the bed at sa tub.
I am truly an idiot.
Why do I bother so much for this?
You are really are an idiot. You bothered this much because she's your wife.
I smirked to myself and tossed away the stem of the rose. Damn, I looked like an idiot. I prepared a romantic dinner, some retro music on vinyl and fairy lights for a less stressful night.
She's gone for work and I'm sure she'll be tired when she comes back. And I don't want my queen to be drained so I have to be creative. I had some oils with me and I flipped through the internet for some relaxing light massage.
Maybe at some point, idiots improve. I maybe a jerkidiot before but now I am still an idiot, but lesser jerk. Napasinghap ako at muling tumingin sa suot kong relo.
Titless is a little late tonight. She promised to be back within the night and I hold on to that stupid promise.
Guess I was really an idiot.
Kinuha ko ang remote at nanuod na lamang mg late night news. Ilang beses kong tinawagan ang kanyang cellphone pero hindi ko siya sumasagot. Normally, I would have been mad at times like this and threaten her but if I do, I'll be the one in lower hand knowing my wife.
She could fucking arrive tomorrow morning and still blame me for her tardiness. And I'll be a total idiot because that will be fine with me.
Nagpalipat-lipat lamang ako ng channel hanggang sa nagsawa na ako. Iginala ko ang paningin sa paligid at napabuntong-hininga. The house seems so cold ngayong wala siya.
It's past one in the morning.
Tumayo ako at binuksan ang mga ilaw bago isa-isang pinatay ang mga kandila sa loob ng bahay. Even the long candle on the dining area has almost burned out but still no sign of titless around.
I began to worry but a part of me is calm. I know she's somewhere safe at maybe may mga kailangan lamang siyang ayusin kaya hindi agad siya nakauwi. Or maybe she wants to surprise me when she comes back. Ang dami kong naiisip na dahilan kung bakit wala pa siya ngayon despite her sincere promise of returning tonight so we could have time together.
This is the start of our life as normal couple. Well, siguro hindi normal na hindi lamang siya ang katabi ko sa kama kundi maging ang hindi mabilang niyang baril na kung saan-saan niya sinusuksok. We will be a normal couple because unlike before, our feelings weren't forced by some reason.
