Ashton's POV
I was crying harder than I thought I would be. This should be easy. I've done it so many times before that I thought I would've been used to it. But it's not easy. Not at all. I put the rest of the sharpener back into my bag and took hold of one of the blades.
I couldn't stop shaking. I was shaking so hard that I thought the sharp object would fall right out of my hand. I don't have anyone to stay strong for anyways. Not even myself.
I brought the razor up to my wrist, applying pressure and sliding it across. I bit my lip and dropped the razor. I regretted it, but I wanted more. As much as it pained me to say it, I wanted more. It hurt, but it also took the hurt away.
The blood stood out against my skin. Then there was another cut. And another. And another. And another. I decided five was enough, as they were pretty deep.
My phone buzzing brought me out of the bathroom and into my bedroom.
From: jerk
Hey sry about 2day. Goodnight
From: Ashyboo
i dont like you stop texting me
From: jerk
I know u don't but I still thought I'd say sry
From: Ashyboo
wow everything is better omg thanks so much!!12!!1!
From: jerk
U don't have 2 be mean about it Im trying 2 b nice
From: Ashyboo
sorry i have a tendency to be rude to assholes
From: jerk
Whatever. Goodnight
From: Ashyboo
goodnight, asshole.
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I looked at myself in the mirror. I looked terrible. My eyes were red, there was dry blood on my arms, my face was red and wet from tears; I just looked terrible. I ran a hand through my hair, which was messy and knotted from sleeping. I decided to take a shower.
I was still tired after my shower. I expected that, though, since I only got an hour of sleep. I didn't show that, though. There was a smile glued onto my face when I walked downstairs in a grey hoodie and black skinny jeans with holes in the knees.
I'm okay. I'm okay. I'm okay.
"Morning, Ashton. Sleep well?" Stephen asked as I came downstairs. I nodded, taking a seat at the table and grabbing my grey converse that were laying on the table. He was flipping through a newspaper while Laurie was making some coffee.
"Oh, morning, sweetie." Laurie greeted when she noticed I was here. I waved quickly and went back to tying my shoe.
"Would you like some coffee?" She asked.
"Yes, ma'am." I answered. I finished tying my shoes and looked up at Stephen, who was checking his watch.
"You're up awfully early." He stated.
"Went to bed early." I lied, fiddling with the sleeves of my hoodie. He nodded, going back to reading. I took out my phone and went on Pinterest.
"The coffee machine isn't working. Just run by McDonald's on your way to school and get some." Laurie said, handing me a ten dollar bill. Coffee wouldn't cost near that much, but I just went with it and decided I'd give her the change later.
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goodnight // lashton
FanfictionLuke and Ashton used to be best friends. They were inseparable. High school came and they faded apart. Two weeks into their freshman year, they stopped taking altogether. Yet every single night, they texted each other "goodnight." What happens when...