A Message From My Ex (Completed)

Chapter 23: Apology Maybe Accepted

Hey guys!  I loved my last chapter. I hope you enjoyed it.  I stayed up till 2 for that.  Anyway, I left three cliffhangers (Check the recap) and in this chapter, I'll be explaining one situation, and leaving the other two for the next chapter.

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Recap~

He stood up and grabbed his own coat running to the doors.  He looked around the streets but she was gone.  I had never seen Danny cry and for the first time in years, tears started to roll down his face as he slumped in front of the doors of St. Pizza.  He hated himself.  With that one night of pleasure, he didn’t lose his first love. He lost his true love

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~It's the way I'm feeling I just can't deny, but I've gotta let it go.~

~Danny Rivers~

This entire love thing is more of Chris's thing but I'll try my best.

No, I can't try my best, I have to get her back.

I don't know if you understand this feeling.  According to Chris, a lot of people go through it.  Well, I don't like it.  All it ever does is break and burn and for the first time in years, I cried when she left.  I never wanted to be in a relationship because I knew that it would hurt and when I gave it a chance, I thought this was finally the one that would work out but like usual, I screwed things up.

Chris handed me a mug of his homemade hot chocolate and sat across me as I stared at the hot beverage solemnly.

Chris hasn't been having a good time too.  Lindsey left.  He wouldn't tell me what he did.  All I know is that whatever made her leave was his fault and it upset her.  A lot.

I know I may seem like a dick when I say this but all of a sudden, I felt like Chris back when he first broke up with Lindsey.  You do not know the extent of his depression.  He thought he was the one having trouble with all of those emotions inside of him dwelling on Lindsey.  I was the one who had to work on his outside and it was one of the hardest things I had ever done in my life.

I had never let go of anything in my life.  That’s one of the reasons yet again why I do not go through long-term relationships. It’s not like I have this history like all those other guys do with their parents getting divorced and stuff. I don’t.  I’m just…aware of those things at an early age so I prevented them before they could even happen.

I don’t want to bother Chris.  Unlike Chris, I’m very practical. I don’t want to bother people about the stupid things I’m going through.  I know that it was supposed to be a time for me to be alone or something but I just wanted some classic silent and awkward company.  I don’t know.  I’m confused.

“Chris.” I murmured that he almost couldn’t hear it at all.

“Yeah, man?”  He looked at me with his ocean blue eyes.

I played with a small white thread on the table refusing to look Chris in the eye.  “How did you…feel when Lindsey broke up with you?”

I don’t like talking about these things.  I feel like I’m with a psychiatrist or something I’m laying down on this bed thingy you always see on TV.

He was quiet for a while thinking of the perfect word to say and when he looked up at me, I again refused to look him in the eye but he answered anyway.  “Shattered.”

I simply nodded off playing with the little thread to try and distract myself. I failed miserably of course since whenever I looked at the little white thread, it reminded me of the white sundress Olivia wore when we had our first kiss.  I smiled for a while until I remembered that I had let her go just like that.