Where wounds can heal ~ Woochan

Chapter 13 ❄️

❄️Something just like this❄️

It's already dark outside and I'm still reading some comments on Twitter. Why am I even doing this to me? Why am I reading those for almost one hour when I know that it will hurt me. When I know that I will end up heartbroken. But it's like an addiction. I just can't stop, no matter how hard I try.

"Hyung? You're still awake?"
I look up and see Jeongin starring at me while closing the door behind him.
"Yes, I am, as you see."
I put my phone aside und look at him.
"Hahaha yes..." I know there's something up. Normally he's not that nervous and he should be sleeping by now, so it must be important.
"Take a seat, Jeonginie" I say, while pointing at the place next to me on my bed. Almost immediately he sits down.

"So I guess you want to talk to me and not just sit there..."
"Right, Hyung. It's about Hyunjin Hyung."
He hesitates a bit, so I pat his back in a comforting way. Well, it seems to have an effect because after a while he calms down a little.

"I'm worried. He changed, no, more like... uhm... his appearance changed. Yes, he's skinnier and he's so pale without make up. I mean he's too skinny, he has lost a lot of weight only in a few weeks, but he's eating enough. Well, he's definitely eating normally, just like before. Maybe he's ill or something? But when I asked him, he said he's totally fine and nothing changed and that I'm just worrying too much. I don't know, have you noticed anything, Hyung?"

I think about it. He's right, Hyunjin surely got skinnier, but he doesn't eat in a different way, I mean not enough or something like that. I really need to observe this, maybe JYP's words had an effect on him...

"We need to watch him for a while, okay? Then we can say if there's really something wrong, maybe we're just overreacting..."
"Yes, maybe you're right, Hyung...
Thank you"
"You're welcome, Jeonginie"
Then he leaves the room, probably going to sleep. I also wanna sleep, but I know that now this topic won't leave my mind for sure...

'I'm still too fat I guess...'
Those were his words. Did or worse, does he really think that he's too fat. All of that shit just because JYP said something stupid? Because this is stupid! I mean Hyunjin's body was perfect. Skinny, but not too skinny, not anorexic...

Maybe I should talk to him about it, but first I need to see if that's really true. Maybe Jeongin is just worrying too much about him...

But it's cute of him, it feels good to see how much he likes and cares for his Hyungs. I know that we all, maybe even I, are special to him, but especially Hyunjin. Probably it's because how many affection and love he shows Jeongin. He always gave him all of his love and he still does so.

I kinda also want to have someone who cares for me like that, who I always can talk with and who just understands how I feel. I want to have a relationship like this. I want to have something just like this...

I close my eyes about one hour later, ready and tired enough to sleep, and slowly drift off to the world of my dreams. Forgetting about everything and everyone, I'm only feeling a warm hand patting my head before I fall asleep.