Strawberry Cake [EDITING]

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⚠ TRIGGER WARNING ⚠ : Suicide

It was so dark.

Everyone was asleep.

Everyone except Renjun.

The Renhyuck duo had been invited by Jaemin to stay the night, and although Renjun thought that it was a bad idea because he would scare Jeno, Jaemin insisted that they should stay so that Jeno could try and warm up to him being around.

Renjun knew it wouldn't work.

Jeno wouldn't forgive him till the day he died, and he truly shouldn't.

But Jeno was sleeping in Jaemin's room so Renjun and Haechan got Jeno's room for the night.

Renjun slipped out of bed and grabbed a notebook and pen off a random shelf in the boy's room before opening the door-

"Injunnie~ baby where are you going?" Haechan asked sweetly. Renjun turned to see his boyfriend smiling that delicate and beautiful smile of his. It made Renjun smile lightly, a tear or two escaping his eyes as he whispered.

"Nowhere Chanie. Just go back to sleep." He said softly. Haechan smiled and nodded before rolling back over.

"Don't take too long Junnie. You still owe cuddles..." Haechan said, his voice drunk with fatigue as he drifted off again.

With a sigh, Renjun shut the door behind himself and proceeded down the stairs.

He walked into the kitchen and looked around until his eyes fell upon the thing he was looking for.

A glass.

He filled it with water and carefully searched around for the other item he desired.

He slowly slid down to the floor, a glass of water in one hand and in the other a handful of ten tiny white specks in his hand.

He looks at the shining spots, the dim light of the Microwave being all that shone upon him from the ground.

One, two, three.

He popped three of them into his mouth and used the water to rinse it down.

Seven more, and Jeno would be safe.

Four, five.

He washed them down slowly.

Six pills is the highest dosage of Tylenol that can be safely taken.

This was it.

Just a little more.

Six-

"R-R-Renjun..?" Renjun looked up slowly through his tear blurred vision at the figure standing in the darkness, clutching in his hand a small cat stuffed animal. Renjun shook his head.

He needed to take the rest.

Right now.

He lifted the handful of pills up to his mouth.

"R-Renjun stop! N-no, what are y-you doing!" Jeno shouted as he lunged forward, knocking the pills out of Renjun's hands and onto the floor.

"What are you doing Jeno! I'm trying to save you! Let me-" Renjun didn't finish as he began to reach for the pills scattered on the floor desperately.

"No! Renjun stop!" Jeno yelled, hoping that one of the other two boys would hear and come downstairs. "Please Renjun stop! Stop it, please!! R-Renjun!" Jeno protested as he held Renjun's hands back so he wouldn't try and grab them.

"Let me go!" Renjun screamed as he struggled against Jeno's hold.

"NO! Renjun, no I-I can't lose you.. I can't lose you too... I can't lose you.. I can't watch you d-die just like... Just like th-them! I can't be responsible.." Jeno cried into Renjun's shirt, his pleading sobs echoing around the kitchen. "Please don't die.."

Renjun looked down at the boy in his lap.

What was happening?

Why did Jeno care so much?

Everything bad that had ever happened to him was Renjun's fault. He deserved a punishment worse than death.

"Why.. Why did you stop me Jeno?" He asked as he cried, running his shakey hands through Jeno's hair.

"B-because I care Junnie.. I don't want you to die." Jeno's voice changed for a moment. It became suddenly deeper and more grown, everything about his movements as he hugged and quietly murmured pleas as he begged for Renjun to stop although the older had already calmed down. "Please don't leave me.." And he was gone again, his voice rising in pitch and body scrunching up into a tighter ball as he clutched Renjun's shirt and continued to cry.

"What's going on!?" Jaemin yelled as he came into the kitchen, turning on one of the lights and looking at Renjun on the floor with Jeno in his lap.

Renjun looked up slowly and met Jaemin's gaze with his tear-filled one.

"Don't worry Jaemin.. Jeno did it." Jaemin took a step closer.

"Did what?"

"Jeno saved my life.."

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I definitely didn't cry while writing this wdym okay bye see yah soon..