For You [p.d]

12

Once Poe leaves I spend the next hour or two insanely bored trapped in this stupid white room, I think about all of the bad possibilities that Poe could get himself into and am feeling constantly worried. Finally I am able to have some human contact when I see the doctor come back in, staring at his clipboard. "You know I had a lot of respect for you after you saved me and everything, but after the past 2 hours I have even more because you have to sit in the quiet room all the time." He chuckles at me, shaking his head. "Didn't you live on Tatooine for a bit? I would think you would be used to it." that shut me up. 

He unwrapped my arm from my sling to look at it, "It looks nice, you'll need to stay in the sling for a little while longer to protect the stitches but you can be dismissed from here. I'll take out your stitches in about 4 days." I nod and quickly stand up for the first time in what feels like forever, grabbed my pills, and headed to my room that wasn't too far away so that I could change. After I feel like myself again, I quickly head out to the center where they are tracking Poe. I feel stares as I move quickly to the command area, almost like it's my first day here again all over again. But then again it was Elise Kenobi, Jedi and the princess of Religne's, first day. I see Connix and a few other computer workers all intensely looking at their screens, making sure the mission is going okay. I sneak up behind Connix, "Is everything okay?" Connix jumps and holds her chest, causing me to laugh. "Elise oh my lord! You scared me so much, why aren't you in the clinic?" she turns in her chair facing me, "I was released, my arm was looking good. I wanted to check on how Poe is doing." She nods while moving over so I could see her screen, it was tracking Poe's ship and he would be landing any minute now. "He should be landing in about 10 minutes, so far there is no signs of First Order where he is." I feel relieved with the news that she tells me but I can't help but feel as if something will go wrong. 

A few minutes go by of Connix updating me on where exactly he's landing and what happened during the time I was out when we hear Poe's mic turn on telling us he's about to land. "How are the scanners look Lieutenant?" Poe asks Connix, "From what our tech tells us you're clear but make this quick, I don't think we'll have much time." Connix finishes and I add in, "Be safe, Commander." and you can almost hear his smile in the mic as he says, "Always am, I'll be back soon." His communication is turned off but his location is still on so we can track him. 

Almost as soon as he hung up, Shev stood up and yelled at Connix. "My reader says there are about 4 large Order ships landing in the area." "Mine too!" someone else yells. And sure enough, right on Connix's screen popped up those first order transports. "Threepio, did you put a tracker into BB-8 before they left?" I asked the startled droid. "Um no Master Kenobi, we ran out of time, I shall go get Princess Leia." He ran, or should I say waddled, as fast as his metal legs let him. Connix was trying to get ahold of Poe inside of his wing but nothing was working. After a minute he finally responded to our calls out of breath "I got it, there's a lot of the- Damnit!" is all we heard before the connection was lost, obviously something unfixable happening to his ship. As we all lost connection we sat there in silence, internalizing what just happened. Connix left with Leia to tell her everything that happened and I was left sitting in her chair, staring at the blank screen in disbelief. No one knew what was going to happen to him, if he would come back, if he would safely escape, if he would get captured. I sat there waiting at the computer for anything, any signs that he is alive but I got nothing. 

The next two days went so insanely slow and I can't remember the last time I had a full conversation, it's almost like I've become mute. There are still no signs of Poe or BB-8 or the map, a lot of workers continued on with their jobs but I can't focus on anything else besides trying to get him back, I am brought back to life when someone is clapping in my face really loudly, "Elise Middle name that I do not know Kenobi! Can you at least participate in our conversation or eat your dinner." Jess says, scolding me, "I know how upsetting this is, believe me I've know him well for a long time too, but you can't sit here moping for the rest of you life." I nod my head, knowing she's right, "I know I can't, but I feel like this is all my fault, if I would've gone maybe he would be back here, ya know?" She shakes her head, grabbing my shoulders and facing me towards her. "Listen to me, you had no choice in this decision, It's nobody's fault because nobody could've seen this coming. Understand?" I nod while looking at the floor. "No look at me, do you understand" I look her in the eye and give her a slight smile. "Yes ma'am."

"There's that smile that we have missed. Okay you know what we need to clear our minds? A girls night, you, me, Connix, Tallie, and Paige. We're going to go to your room and talk about girl stuff, because we may know a lot about you but you don't know about us. Let's go." Jess drags me out of my seat and tells the other girls to follow. When we get to my room we all sit facing each other on Connix and my beds, "Okay I'll start and we can all ask our own questions in a circle. What was your favorite memory that you have when you were little?" Tallie asks and then continues, "Mine was when my brother was teaching me how to drive a speeder, us kids weren't aloud to drive it but when I was about 12 my brother stole the keys and we took it out for a spin." She smiles at the memory and then looks to Paige next to her, "Well when I was little I didn't have a too happy life, but once on Rose's birthday our owners let us watch one of the races happening on Canto Bight and It was really cool." I was sitting next to Paige and honestly it was hard to choose my favorite so I just picked the one that came to mind, "When I was about 8 I think, my mom took me to Yavin to meet her close friend Leia and Han and I don't remember much, but I do remember running around with her son and he showed me a force tree. That trip is when my mom realized I was force sensitive." I look to Jess next to me and all she says is, "Well great now I have to follow up that amazing story." and rolls her eyes.

The night continued just like that, getting to know each other better and laughing a lot we had fun conversations and serious conversations. At this point we have probably been talking for three hours and we were all laying down, looking at the ceiling. Paige breaks the silence we were having, "If this were all to be over, would you want to have kids in the future?" We all take a moment to think about it, and honestly it's something I would think about as a little girl, but not now. 

"I used to dream about marrying a prince from another kingdom and then having a bunch of kids, but that dream ended once I started training a lot, I haven't thought about it since because I've never really had someone to want one with." Jess laughs, "Not even dreamboat Poe?" but then everyone got silent and my heart dropped to my stomach. And I start thinking about it, what if he was here right now, what would we turn out to be? "Oh my gosh, I'm sorry El, I totally forgot." I clear my throat and push down my tears, but you can't miss the emotion in my voice. "No I get it, you didn't mean to it's fine, and anyways he may still be alive out here. Like he said, I couldn't get rid of him that easily." I smile at his words as a singular tear fell down my cheek. I don't talk much for the rest of the night, but unlike earlier it's not because I was super depressed, I just felt like listening. We talked about random things like food and what we remember of our parents, I laughed some more and truly felt happy to have these people around me, they were my best friends and honestly, the siblings that I never had.