Defeated (D.J.S)

Always?

Flashback: Then the mystery person starts to sing softly. And I immediately know who it is. It's Daniel.

I immediately jumped back, realizing who was comforting me. Not a great idea, as I stumbled back into his arms due to my unbalance.

"What's wrong?" He asked concerned.

"It's not you. I-I just don't want to bother you with my issues. Y-you shouldn't have found out about this. Please just go." I said, my voice still wavering. My hands were on his forearms, and his hands on my elbows supporting me.

I hated trying to push him away. Especially since he had been nothing but sweet and amazing to me. But that's the only thing I knew how to do, right? Push people away. And hope, just hope, that they stop caring. Because if they care. Something is going to happen. Something will happen to them that I can't prevent. And it will always be my fault.

"Listen to me Isabel. I know we don't know each other that well yet, but I'm still worried about you. Nobody, and I mean NOBODY, deserves to be alone. If you don't want to talk about it that's fine. But at least let me hold you." His eyes looking into mine, seeing right through my lies.

"No. I am always hurting people, Daniel. I can't hurt you too." I say as a tear escapes my eye. I wipe it away, not wanting to look vulnerable. I try to move away from him.

"Look at me." He says softly, lifting my chin with his index finger. "You could never hurt me."

I broke with those words. I broke down. Sinking to my knees, he came down with me. And he held me. He didn't tell me I was worthless. He didn't say it was or wasn't my fault. He didn't try to make me stop crying. He just held me.

Comforting me as I choked on my own sobs. Soaking up his shirt. My shoulders shook as I just let it all out. Daniel rubbing soothing circles on my back, as I sank into his embrace.

"I'm so- so s-sorry." I choked out over some time.

"For what angel?" He tilted his head to the side.

"F-for ruining your shirt." I giggle softly, trying to ignore the fact he just called me angel.

"It's replaceable." He pauses a second before asking, "Do you wanna talk about it?"

I take a deep breath, nodding my head slowly. We reposition ourselves to be facing each other, sitting criss-cross applesauce, and our hands intertwined. I ignored the small gesture, due to the fact that it actually felt nice.

"2 years ago my dad died in a head on collision from a drunk driver." I started.

"Just before he left he asked me if-if" Daniel noticed my struggle and gently began to rub my hand with his thumb. I took a deep breath again.

"He asked me if I wanted to come with him. And I said no because I had to 'study'. I was so stupid. I regret that everyday of my life. If I had gone with him he probably would be here right now. I could have prevented it. But no. I chose to stay and read about fucking protons and nuetrons! And that idiot driver had to get into his car while drunk! Why couldn't he have just stayed at the bar. Why?!"

At this point I was full on sobbing again. Daniel brought me into his lap, holding me in a hug with my head on his chest.

"When we got the call. I drove as fast as I could to the accident site. They hadn't removed him from the car yet. He was still in there. Cut and bleeding. He was still alive though. I ran straight to him not caring about the people yelling at me. I held his hand that was slightly out of the car and pleaded that he stay alive. To keep breathing for one more minute. The last words he said. He said 'it's okay. I love you'... But-but it's not okay! It will never be okay." I trailed off.

"I went back home, expecting my mother to comfort me and we could help each other through this time. But no. She yelled at me. My own mother yelled at me. Told me I should have been there. She was right. She called me an idiot. That it was my fault. She said 'how did I end up with a daughter so self-centered'. I will never get her words out of my head. I felt so lost. So betrayed. After that I called Kelly and told her everything. I had to leave. I couldn't stay there with all the painful memories. I had to leave my older sister and three younger siblings to fend for themselves, with a woman I used to call my mother." I sobbed.

I stayed in his embrace, for what felt like forever.

"I don't know why I'm crying. I'm so weak." I laugh dryly.

"It's not a bad thing to cry. I think it makes a person stronger." Daniel said. I just hummed back and sat up.

"Thank you for just listening. No one ever does that." I said playing with my fingers.

"You're welcome. But just so you know. Your dad was right. It's gonna be okay. I'll always be here for you ya know." He says. I look up and get lost in his ocean eyes. At that moment I knew. I knew that I had fallen head over heels for a blue-eyed boy named Daniel Seavey.

His eyes dart down to my lips and back to my eyes.

"Always?" I whisper. He starts to lean forward, and I feel myself leaning in too. There is almost no space in between us.

"Always." He says.

As he goes to close the gap, a crash is heard from inside the house.

We both immediately jump back from each other, looking away nervously. Did we almost just kiss? Stupid interruptions.

"We should uh... Go check what that was." Daniel says as he rubs the back of his neck.

"Uh ya." I say, and he starts to walk towards the house. I couldn't tell if he was as disappointed as I was.

"Daniel, wait." I say catching up to him.

"Thank you." I say wrapping my arms around his waist. He tenses for a second before relaxing and putting his arms around me, returning the hug.

I don't really know why I hugged him. It just felt like I needed to. Or was it because I was already missing his touch? No. That couldn't be it.

"Of course Angel." He mumbles into my hair, placing a kiss on top of my head. Heat rises to my cheeks. Our moment is once again interrupted by yet another crash that sounded like glass breaking.

"What the hell." Daniel mumbles, grabbing my hand and half-running into the house. I was surprised at his action but I didn't fight it.

Stepping back into the house, we walk towards the commotion in the house, with different people yelling and someone crying.

"What the hell is going... On." Daniel trails off as we survey the mess in the kitchen.

Everyone looked scared. Isabella was crying while the rest looked half shocked and half sad. There are two drinking glasses shattered on the floor, with Kelly in the middle. She was bleeding slightly in different places. Jonah was the closest to her with a cut on his arm.

What the hell happened here?

A/N:

Sorry I took so long to update! 

This chapter did make me tear up though...

And what happened in the kitchen??

Side note: I want a hug from Why Don't We... :(

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~Ari