To love a star

Chapter 25

Renebelle "RAIN" Dimakulangan POV

"Babe, mag-usap naman tayo oh" i said in my softest tone, I'm trying na hindi maiyak,pero
Ang hirap,i look at her while palming her arms,and softly squeezing it. While we're sitting at the edge of my bed with too much tension between us. I've waited for a few seconds and a deep breath before she replied.

"Its ok,you, you don't have to" her voiced slightly cracking like on the verge of crying "You don't have to explain everything,i.,ah i.. i understand.." she said and stared blankly on the wall of my room, Biting her lips and i know she's fighting for her tears since yesterday. And acting like she's ok. But not. Ofcourse she's not perfectly ok.

"Babe—" i said, and i slightly shake her arms to
Get her attention,pero malungkot niya lamg akong tiningnan, and her lips slightly parted na Parang may  gustong sabihin pero umiling nalang at tumingin ulit sa wall.

"Its ok. Really." She grab my hands at inalis niya ang kamay ko at marahan na pinatong sa bed.
"Ahmm,you should pack now and get ready, we need to go, may, may schedule pa ako this evening." Tumayo na siya and pumunta ng shower room.

Im sitting on the edge of my bed face palming with my both hands. Feeling guilty of what i did.

I messed up everything, and now i really don't know how to fix it,she's been hurting since yesterday. Its all because of my fuck up, stupid mind. My anxiety,my panic attack hits me. My stupid "what if's",

my stupid,self! my—-my! arrggghhh!

can't help myself but to cry,at yun lang ang tanging magagawa ko sa ngayon.

And  syempre,What should i expect?
Alangan naman magtatalon siya sa tuwa sa nangyari, ofcourse she's been heartbroken since yesterday,likewise i feel right now.  Ang tagal na niyang hinintay tong pagkakataon na to, but i just messed it up and ruined the plan in just a snap,

and this,this is the reward of my foolishness,at kung wala muna siyang ganang kausapin ako? Deserved ko to. Deserved kong maghintay hanggang sa kausapin niya ako ulit,hanggang sa mawala man lang kahit konti yung pain na dinulot ko sa puso niya.

She's been too hurt to listen with my explanations anyway.

It was yesterday, while we preparing for the birthday celebration of Rhean..

Kasama namin si Ben sa kitchen,kasama rin sina mama at papa at si ate Joy,wife of kuya Rhene.

Si Natasha nasa labas kasama ng iba ko pang mga kapatid na nagdedecorate para sa party.

"naku Belle, totoo bang nanliligaw sayo
Tong si Elena Montelibano?" Ask ate joy na kasalukuyang kinakalikot ang phone niya at kung saang social sites man niya tintingnan hindi ko na alam.

"Si Elena? Magkaibigan lang kami nun." I said at napatingin sa gawi ni Ben na tahimik lang na nakikinig habang hinihiwa niya yung sibuyas na gagamitin.

"si Elena ba kamo?Yung maganda at sexy na lumabas sa pinapanood nating teleserye? Elaine?" Nakisama narin si mama sa usapan habang ginigisa yung putahe na iluluto niya.

"Opo ma!hay naku social media talaga, katulad nung nakaraan, kayo ni Natasha ang trending na,pinagtitsismisan sa social media,Para kumita lang talaga kung ano-ano nilalabas na balita!." Said ate Joy na pailing-iling pa.

"Pati ba naman pagkakaibigan nyo ni Natasha eh binibigyan ng malisya?Kuh! Ano na bang nangyayari sa panahon natin ngayun?jusmiyo! kaya andaming nahuhumaling sa mga ganyang maling pakikipagrelasyon dahil din sa mga pinapalabas nila ng kung ano-ano sa tv" sabi ni mama na patigil-tigil sa ginagawa niya at pailing-iling,