Comatose (Jack Gilinsky)

the same promises

Samantha's POV

I pulled away and I saw his eyes sparkle with the little light there was in the house.

I looked down and my shaking hands and disappointment washed over my body.

"Derek..."

"No, I blame myself I shouldn't have kissed you"

"No, I shouldn't have kissed back...God I am really what Jack made me out to be"

"And what's that?" He starts frowning and I start regretting what I just said

"I think you should leave, I have to clean up and get up early for work tomorrow"

"Don't shut me out Sammy we had a moment so what" though we were obviously disappointed about different things his voice held the same amount as mine and it somehow destroyed me

"There was no moment and will never be" I admit because that shouldn't have happened and should never happen again

I forgave him but that didn't mean I want him, it doesn't mean that I trust him like I should a best friend

"I'm sorry I understand but I know that there's something" his eyes pleading and his face with obvi written all over

"Please leave" was all I managed to say and he did as told but stops

"You...you made that promise...we made that promise for me to be around and not push you away why can't you do the same I guess talk is really cheap" he sighs sadly and walks out the door.

Why did I feel sad to see him leave?

Why am I upset by it?

Derek's POV

I sat in my apartment gazing at the muted t.v. forgetting all about it. My mind was at her bruised arms and at the part where I know Jack said something to hurt her

It's easy for the body to heal but not the mind, especially when someone you thought to love or who thought to love you were the ones to say the words that can destroy you

I suddenly heard little crackling sounds which caused me to look down at my hands. My fingers folded and hands formed fists.

I suddenly sped off with a blank mind and my car keys in hand. I don't know where he is but I'm going to find him.

*
No time later I found myself at Stassie's. I knocked at her door continuously till she opened it and when she did I just barged right in.

I looked around at her new place seeing I haven't been around since she moved out of Kelsey's. It was nice. Boho, white, plants, instagram worth spacious. It seemed like her. When I finally looked at her, her arms set crossed waiting for an explanation and was all dressed up with her purse in hand

"You going out"

"No, I just got back actually" she nervously spoke

I could see why because after I roughed her up and then the time when I walked out on her after she told me about me having a daughter. I still haven't answered her as to whether I'd want to meet the girl or not and I'm sure that's what she thinks I'm here for.

"I need you to call Johnson and find Jack for me" I demanded

"No"

"I wasn't asking"

"Even if you were I wasn't going to do it"

Hmmm

"I'm done with you I'm done with your games, I'm not getting what I want out of this so there is no point to it" she shrugs it off and walks down a hall hoping I'd disappear but in reality when I want something I go for it so I followed her. She was in her room already stripped herself of her top and wasn't fazed by seeing me. I mean why would she? I've seen it all

"I don't get you" I say

"What is it you don't get from, no" she rolls her eyes and starts digging through her closet

"Not the no, you in the plan...you agreed to help because why I don't know but you said you will have it all but what is it all"

"What were you hoping to gain?" I asked as I stepped closer to her but she stands her ground. She usually backs up but she doesn't. Why? What's changed?

"Do you want to fix things with Johnson, you guys were married right? Or do you want Jack back? Remember when that was a thing, remember when you betrayed me?"

"For the last time we didn't sleep together"

"But you went behind my back turned everyone against me, you hid things, you lied" at this point I was eye to eye, barely any space left between us

What is her game here?

Something's changed it's quite obvious but what?

"Derek please leave there's nothing any of you can give me" she looks at me and a little light suddenly appeared. It was all too familiar to me. Dear God I hope it's not what it looks like.

I hope its not what it was

She slips past me and walks into the bathroom closing the door behind her and locking it.

If she's not helping then I'll do it myself

My eyes found her phone and my hands found her password. It was the day she became a model. What I pay attention

To jj: hey I'm with Sammy we're looking for Jack, her phone's dead sooo hmu when see this

From jj: he was just here but check Crazy Girls

To jj: the bar?

From jj: yeah it's where him and Samantha met. He goes there when he's upset about something

To jj: thanks soooooo much jj
Read at 11:30pm

That club is all the way across town but I gotta do what I gotta do

I deleted the messages and left without saying goodbye. She was no help and I was hoping that I wouldn't see her again but I know with her that's a freaking lie

She's everywhere

I ended up all the way across the city at 1 in the morning. I'm not gonna lie I was tired and probably out of my mind driving across the city for what I'm about to do.

Smelling sweaty people, alcohol the usual for a club. Girls on the tables, guys throwing money at them. Guys that are supposedly with their girlfriends but really came to see the strippers or their side pieces.

I looked around the crowded room and found him sulking at the bar probably a tequila in hand

I passed a few bimbos on the way which maybe probably took an hour with the groping and unwanted touching. I sat on the stool next to him not noticing me.

"A cold one" I tell the bar tender and he hands me a beer

"Well well well if it isn't pretty face..it's nice to see you" he chuckles lazily as he downs his shot of tequila

"I wish I can say the same"