Comatose (Jack Gilinsky)

nightmares

Friday

Normally the bright sun shining through the curtains is what I'd wake up to but this time the room was dark and gloomy. I look to my right at my snoring best friend and her mouth was wide open letting drool run to the side of her mouth and onto the pillow she was cuddling with. I got up and walked towards the window and moved the curtains aside saw that out was the problem. The sky overcasted and rain pouring from it. I brushed my teeth had my bath and whatnot before getting ready. I wore a yellow sundress, white sandals and my hair in a quick ponytail. Matching jewellery was the last thing before going down to the kitchen to make breakfast for Dejeah and I.

I ended up making and eating before she got up so I left a note

Made you breakfast as a thanks for everything, you can stay if you want I'll be back in 2 hrs or so.

Xoxo
Sammy

I got in the Range seeing that I barely drove her and was on my way

*
At the hospital

"So the doctor said you'll be able to leave tomorrow instead" I sat to the chair beside him and it was like I was afraid to look at him. I don't know what made me feel that way but I did.

"Why are you here shouldn't you be out with Derek, moving on, having the time of you life hating me"

When I did look at him he was the one to look away

Gosh I feel like an ass

"I should be but it wouldn't be the truth on how I feel about you..." my tone soft and weary trying not to fight off tears and how heart broken I was. Somehow I felt like I was the one that out him there and he's better off without me. The more I said it over in my head the more time I realized he couldn't bare the sight of me

"I would tell you how I feel but I need to know the truth, I need to know why you took the fall for something you didn't do" suddenly there he was. For a moment his brown eyes saw a happy memory playing in his head, I knew because I saw that light but it all went away and those beautiful brown orbs turned it black, burying every emotion and thought towards that memory.

He's scared?

"Tell me what you see, what you remember, I'm not running away, I promise" I said meaning every word because I owe him as much. Only now it took me to realize a part of me wanted to run away leave it all but I'm not leaving him

Before he could anything a doctor came in. She introduced herself as Doctor Logan and boy oh boy did she look like Stassie. Jack must have gotten a kick out of her...

Stop it Samantha!

I'm running away again

I'm pushing him away

After she left he looks everywhere but at me

"Don't you want to fix this, fix us"

"No"

Well that shit hurt like a bitch

Hey Jack why you're at it why don't you just rip my heart out, rip it to pieces, chew it up, spit it out and stomp on it!

"Did I do something?" My voice cracked and tears formed

"Can you leave" he rolls his eyes

Stop pretending to be annoyed you lil bitch

"No!" I got up closed the door and locked it

I sat back down in my space and he turns his head the other direction

Ok fine you don't want to look at me then I'll make you

I got off the chair and climbed onto the bed. I straddled him sitting on his low stomach. All this and he still doesn't move
I took his head and turned it towards me. Holding it in place. It took his eyes a few seconds to stop avoiding me but he finally gave up

"Talk. To. Me." I demanded

"I have nightmares ok!"

"Jack" I started but he cuts me off

"I'm a fucking pussy is that what you really want to hear...I ran because I had nightmare!"

"What was it about" I took his hand in mine and surprisingly he didn't pull away

"I keep seeing Giovanni" his voice cracks and tears fell from his eyes "and Makayla"

I don't know about Makayla but I miss my son too. It's been 5 almost 6 years since he passed.

"I miss him too baby"

"I don't remember any happy moments Samantha, that's what's killing me...I only see when he dies over and over. Eveything felt to good to be true, I feel like I'm going to mess up and the world is going to make me pay harder with each mistake"

"We could have dealt with it together"

"No we couldn't because I've been a coward, I couldn't face you, when I went on that trip 2 years ago I wasn't planning on being with Ryn but I got excited with that dumb offer and drank with the team. When I realised what happened I thought to forget it but Ryn called saying she was pregnant, I thought I could easily slip away from you because of the amount of money I spent and me almost ruining your life!" His tone heavy his eyes puffy and his cheeks red

"There's nothing better than talking it out" I ensure him

"I'm scared"

"It's going to be ok, I found who's setting you up but you'll have to work on your other mistakes"

"I'm sorry" he whimpers

"We're going to be ok"

Not going to lie but it's going to take me a while to overlook all that Jack's done. I'll be at his side no matter how long it takes.

"I'll come get you before I leave for my trip tomorrow"

"No" he says sternly

"Don't you want to come home?"

"I would love to but I can't we both know I'm a bomb in the making so I want to get help before I come home"

Even as a wreck he's still beyond sweet

"I love you Jack"

"I love you too"