so sick (one direction)

Ziall~now that you cant have me you suddenly want me

we gonna pretend Paul is the same age as the boys mkay? good

{Niall}

it's been a year now, since Behz-Ethan called off our engagement, since I last saw him. 1 month since I fell in love with Zayn. three weeks since I found out he felt the same. two weeks since we started dating. three hours since we came out publicly. now, I'm sitting here, reading through the comments that came flooding in, not a bad comment in sight. as I read the last few, my phone buzzed. Zayn had left for a flight to see his cousin in L.A less than an hour ago, so I assumed it was him texting me to tell me that he was at the airport. I opened my phone

now that you cant have me, you suddenly want me

i saw a message from Ethan, which read " I'm sorry I left you. It was a big mistake. I love you. I really want you back I miss you sooooo much. please forgive me? I know you have Zayn now but he doesn't love you like I do." all that ran through my head was "typical. he sees I'm in love with somebody else, and asks for me back" I thought for a minute about what Ethan had said. I was disgusted by what he said, especially after he left me for some slapper who probably has an std. I decided to text him back.

now that I'm with somebody else, you tell me you love me

"you have no right to do this to me after I finally found someone who makes me happier than you did. do you know what you put me through? the harm I was doing to myself all because of you. you didn't even tell me what I had done wrong. you left me, for some slag, and that lasted how long? 3 weeks? what happened to her huh? Liam said to me that I needed to forget about you, then I would stop loving you. I did forget about you, Ethan. but I never did and will stop loving you. you never stop loving someone, you just find someone you love more. as I did with Zayn. now we are happy, so you go and find another slut to fuck with, because I love Zayn now" I text back then in a wave of anger, I threw my phone at the wall screaming. I slid down the wall crying as I heard a knock at the door. "y-yeah?" I whispered "Niall? can we come in?" Louis said "u-uh ye-eah" I said crying harder as Louis and Harry walked in. Louis ran over to me and immediately pulled me into a hug while Harry went over to my phone, which, considering the force of which I threw it, wasn't broken, and brought it over to me.

"shhh. Nialler, you're ok buddy. calm down ok? just breath. what happened?" Harry asked "E-Ethan text-ted m-me a-and he t-t-told me h-he sti-ill loved m-me. I dont kn-know wha-at to d-do" I said, as I began to have a panic attack. "Niall, mate? breathe. calm down for me ok? Haz, go get Liam and Paul, as they know how to help Niall more as they have experience. then go get a glass of water ok?" Louis demanded, but Harry knew, from last time this happened, that the results could be fatal, so he followed Louis' orders. Louis turned back to me, and started comforting me and trying to help me. "Nialler? I want you to look at me ok?" I nodded and looked at him. I knew he was trying to get me to focus on his face, and even though my eyes were blurry from crying, I still managed to do it. "ok mate, now, I want you to listen to me. Zayn told me, before he went to see his cousin, that if you were to have a panic attack, that you liked to listen to people talk so you could listen to them, and focus on their voice" he said. my breathing was getting heavier and harder to take oxygen in so I just nodded my head as Louis continued

"and it helps you calm down if you have one person to hold you, one person to talk to you, and one person for you to listen to their heart. Paul and Liam and Haz are here now so Paul is going to sit behind you and hold you, Liam will sit next to you so you can listen to his heart, and Harry and I will talk too you ok?" my chest was beginning to get really painful so I nodded again. seconds later, I felt Paul sit behind me, and Liam next to me. he pulled my head to his chest, which had already began to calm me down. Harry was ready with a glass of water for me. "Niall, buddy, can you have a sip of water for me please" someone said so I sat up. however, as soon as I sat up, my breathing get significantly worse. I took a sip of water, and sighed at the relief of the cool feeling on my burning throat where I was still crying. I rest my head back on Liam's chest, and I heard Paul whisper "Lou, why dont you call Zee? his voice might help relax him" "good idea Paul." Louis said. I heard him dial Zayn's number, and it rang three times before he picked up. "Hey Lou, whats up? who is breathing so heavy? is that Ni?"