so sick (one direction)

Nouis~ Thunder

{Niall}

To most people who knew me, it didnt come as a surprise that I was petrified of thunder and lightning. Most being the key word. The sidemen were unaware of my fear, so while we were playing football, and the thunder and lightning started, it wasnt raining so we continued playing, me clearly having to put up a brave front, which I can only hold for so long. When the first crash of thunder and the first spark of lightning occurred, I jumped out of my skin. Unfortunately, Zayn had to notice and being the "bully" of the group he blurts out "aww is lickle Niall scared of the thunder and lightning?" causing everyone to laugh. "oh fuck off Zayn. You're trying to make me feel like shit by making up a lie just because you are sick and tired of everyone realising that you are a worthless peice of shit so you want to look cool by picking on people." I screamed at him. He always picked on me, nobody else, and I had had enough of it. He looked sad and shocked at what I said, but I was still angry. "Nialler, calm down. Its just friendly banter." "FRIENDLY BANTER?  IS THAT ALL THIS IS TO YOU? IF IT WAS FRIENDLY BANTER, HE WOULD DO IT TO ALL OF US NOT JUST ME!" I was beyond caring about hiding my fear of thunder now so as another clap of thunder and another flash of lightning occurred I cowered away from the rest of the sidemen. "Niall, look. I'm sorry OK? I didn't mean to upset you I thought you were OK with it. I didn't mean to tease you I just thought it would be funny." Zayn said. I ignored him and ran to the car as it started raining, the others following shortly behind. "Niall, you arent actually scared of thunder and lightning are you?" Louis said. "no. I just thought he deserved to know that him picking on me is having a big impact on me and I hate it" I said, not wanting to tell the truth as he would laugh, and as another clap of thunder happened a tear slipped and I began to shake. Liam drove us back to the shared flat and when we got there, I ran to my room, putting a movie on, but not before locking the door. The thunder and lightning was more frequent now so I was curled tightly into a ball, and if someone had walked in, I would have looked like a quivering mess. Then, I got a text, asking if I wanted to watch a movie, and if I said I felt sick or I was tired, someone would come check on me, but I couldn't go down. The thunder and lightning is too loud down there. I went down, sighing as I knew that I would have to tell them about my fear sooner or later.

As soon as I walked into the living room, I sat next to Louis, and everyone decided on watching marley and me, which is ironic, because that's what I was watching in my room. But... Another loud crash of thunder. I yelped and bought my knees up to my chest, causing everyone to laugh but , making me feel really sad. And again. This time I hid behind Louis, and once again everyone laughed at me except Louis when Harry said "Niall we know you aren't scared of thunder, but this is hilarious"  This continued for half an hour every 2 minutes and when half an hour had passed, I had had enough of everyone laughing and I cried, silently until a choked sob came out. "Neil, what's wrong? Why are you crying?" Louis asked. I had to think quickly and decided on saying "the movie. The dog died and its sad" I thought it was a smart excuse as the dog did just die, but it turns out everyone knew I was lying. Here's why. "Nialler that's bullshit. You never cry at this part, and we watch the movie 4 times a week, why are you crying? And why are you so jumpy. You're even doing it now" Louis spoke. I decided to let all my emotions out. "OK you know what? It's because I AM scared of thunder and lightning. All you have done for the last half an hour is accuse me of faking, and laughing at me. It's made me realise that you are all bitter assholes except Louis who really don't care about me. As my friends, I would have never expected that. I guess my mum was right. Choose your friends wisely, because the fake ones will stab you in the back" I said getting up to leave, just to have Louis pull me down again. He whispered in my ear "they are your friends. They all have something personal going on and it's having an effect on them, it isn't their fault. They shouldn't do it to you, yeah, but if it was you doing it to them, they would understand. And I knew you were scared of thunder. I have known since your mum told me to look out for you when your brother died. I wanted to correct them, believe me, I did. But I wanted you to tell them how it made you feel. I didn't want to hurt you because... Because... " " because what Louis?" fmfmfmfmfm fmfmfmfmf" he whispered. "what?" I asked as I didn't hear him. Everyone was looking at us now, and what Louis said was "I said, because I-I love y-you" I was gobsmacked. I felt the same about him, and then everyone had a look of shock and sadness on their face "I... I love you too" I said. Harry spoke next. "Lou, is this why you always shouted at us when we upset nialler even if we broke his pencil led?" I couldn't help getting upset over that, I was having a stressful day, and it was getting worse and that annoyed me a lot. "yeah. I have loved him for 2 years now but I had to cheer him up somehow right? Even if I wasn't ready to confess I did it to cheer him up" "this is why I love you. You always want what's best for me. I love you Lou." I knew now that as long as I had my boyfriend in my arms, I would be protected from all my worries and fears. I love my boyfriend Louis tomlinson and my best friends