I Ain't Playing [[PJM]] ✔️

Serendipity

Hana

I was grateful that Jimin told me to get some rest. He was right. I did need to sleep because I hadn't had a decent sleep since Jihun arrived. And even though I was exhausted, I loved every minute of it. He was beautiful and I had fallen in love with his little face since he was placed on my chest.

As soon as my head hit the pillow I was out and I didn't know how long I was out for. I woke up in a panic because I didn't wake up with Jihun in the basket beside me. I frantically reached for the light and let out a sigh of relief when I heard Jimin.

I rubbed my face away of sleep and quietly walked towards Jimin and Jihun were. I leant on the wall to see Jimin standing up by the window holding Jihun, who was awake. I couldn't help but smile at the image and I was glad that he didn't notice me.

"You are perfect," Jimin said, "Just like your mum and you are extremely lucky to have her as your mum. She is caring, loving and beautiful. I've met a lot of people in my life but she is one that I will never forget. I'm sure that you will grow up to be as perfect as her. I just hope you don't grow up to be like me,"

I swallowed the lump in my throat.

"I messed up, Jihun. I messed up badly and now I can't wake up next to my amazing wife," Jimin shook his head, "I love Hana. I love her with everything I have and now that you have arrived, I want to show you both how good I can be to you both. I know that I won't be here every minute of the day but when I am here, know that I won't be distracted. You will be the centre of attention and I promise that I won't let you down,"

Jimin laughed softly and shook his head again.

"When you are old enough, I will tell you what a failure of a husband I have been," He said, "Your mum has done nothing but support me and love me through everything that I have done. But I managed to mess our marriage up. I was supposed to marry her sister but she ran off with another man so I had to marry your mum. I hated it at first. I treated her as a slave. I compared her to her sister and other famous women. I put her down constantly and treated her like she was a piece of shit, excuse my French, but I soon realised that she was what I needed in my life. It wasn't because of the way she cleaned up after me or how she cooked me dinner all the time. Or even the way she snuggled up to me in bed," He sighed, "I needed her to bring me down to reality. I didn't know what love was until she came into my life and I didn't know I would have fallen in love with her when I met her as a teenager,"

I blinked away my tears and let out a quiet breath.

"I hurt her and I hurt her badly. I will never forgive myself for doing that. I hurt my baby girl and I hate myself for it," He said, "I had a song that I always sang to her and she always smacked me telling me not to sing to her. I always knew she secretly loved me serenading her. Just the way her cheeks went pink. From that moment on, it was my favourite song. I would dance around her singing to her while she tried to do something. I loved it but again, your dad is a piece of shit,"

I quickly wiped my eyes from tears when he started singing Serendipity to our song. I quickly covered my mouth as I started to cry. I had missed him so much and even though I didn't always enjoy him singing to me, I missed it. His voice was beautiful and so was he. I wanted him back but I didn't want my heart to break again. It had been shattered so many times and I was afraid.

"I hope you are gorgeous as your mum when you grow up," He said, kissing his forehead, "Well, at least you've gone back to sleep. I feel like an idiot talking to you because you have no idea what I am saying,"

I decided it was the right time to make myself seen and I cleared my throat making him jump as he was putting Jihun into his basket.

"Hana?" He said, "H-how long have you been standing there?"

I walked towards him, "Long enough,"

Jimin sighed and ran his hands through his hair, "Hana, I want to talk to you,"

"I know," I said, smiling slightly at him, "We are still married until the papers are signed,"

"I don't want to sign them," Jimin said, looking at Jihun, "I know I messed up and I know I haven't given you any explanation but-"

"Jimin, stop," I said, folding my arms, "I'm scared, ok?"

"Of what?"

"You," I whispered, "I'm scared that you are going to shatter my heart into a million pieces once again. I love you, Jimin. I truly do and I don't think I could ever love someone as much as I love you. But I can't do it Jimin,"

"Please don't push me away," Jimin begged and he started to cry, "Please! I can't live without you. I can't. Hana, you are everything to me and-"

"Why did you do it?" I asked, "Why did you let her kiss you?"

"I didn't,"

I scoffed, "I don't believe that somehow. You should have run after me but you didn't. You stood there and looked at me like I was nothing. How do you think that made me feel? My husband, who I love and was carrying his child stood there and let me walk away? You say that you are hurt but have you ever thought what you put me through?"

"I want-"

"Shut up, Jimin," I said quietly, "If you want anything to do with me, you better start explaining what the fuck you have been doing with that bitch of my older sister,"

Jimin sighed and ran his hands through his hair, "Would you be able to get a babysitter?"

"Who the fuck could I ask?" I said, "I don't-"

"I can ask the boys," Jimin said, "Please say yes. I will explain everything to you, I promise,"