Oracle Of The Moon

Him and I -Lucy's POV

Lucy's POV-

Honestly, I felt awful. Even my wolf-side felt it- the bitter sting of unworthiness. I was unworthy. Even Kale had acknowledged it... They didn't need a Luna that couldn't shift. He might not have been able to reject me, but he also couldn't accept me. And that spoke volumes.

"Lucine, come with me," Kale's voice was obviously restrained and his whole body was taut. "...P-please?" He added quickly, making me forget my inner dialog as I grasped his outstretched hand.

The fact that he hadn't plain and flat out rejected me right when he learned the truth of my trapped wolf was remarkable. No Alpha that I had ever heard of would even think about letting a non-shifting female be at the head of their pack. Then again, Kale still didn't even believe that we were mates. Maybe he was just biding his time to find some concrete proof before he rejected me. He probably wasn't even considering letting me be Luna; not that I blamed him for that.

"Lucy..." Kale stopped abruptly in his quick pursuit of wherever we were going making me stumble ungracefully and him having to steady me. "That's enough." It was a command, but I had no idea what he was even talking about.

I looked at him strangely.

"I can feel your hurt, anger, and feelings of unworthiness..." He brushed his fingertips across my face. "Your self-loathing is so stifling and hurtful. Please, that's enough..."

I was speechless as I looked at him with my eyebrows furrowed. I knew that I had felt him, his confusion and want to be loved, but I didn't think he could feel me so clearly. It was stupid to assume that. Obviously, if I could feel him then surely, he'd feel me too... I had just thought that he'd ignore it though. I had been ignored or given only negative attention my whole life; it was strange for someone to pay such close attention to me and my feelings. It was such a foreign concept for someone to care about me. It was a beautiful feeling.

"I- I'm... I," I couldn't muster anything to say.

"I know..." he said softly and breathed in my scent at the crown of my head. "Come on Lucine." He led me away again and kept my hand in his while rubbing soothing circles on the back of it.

I followed silently while letting myself enjoy the closeness of my mate. Even if he was going to reject me eventually, I'd let myself feel the beautiful things that he was making me feel. It was amazing to feel something so genuine after I hadn't felt anything but hurt and ache my whole life before. I'd really miss those feelings if he did decide to reject me... When he decided to reject me.

We got outside and he led me into the woods. I had no shoes on, and the dirt and grass felt lovely beneath my feet. I could feel my wolf-side stirring within me, loving the nature and beauty of the outdoors. I had been caged for far too long, so nature excited me to no end. It would never get old.

As we walked further into the woods, the vegetation got thicker and more vibrant. Even the air seemed fresher as the wildlife became abundant. It was beautiful. I felt free.

I had never seen such abundant vegetation before. During my time in The North, any of the lands that I had seen were bare and lackluster. Their lands had reflected their destruction and power-hungry ways. They couldn't see that this was what it was all about... The beauty around them, the beauty that was once within them. Somehow, they tainted everything though and turned everything into ugliness.

I watched in wonder as we walked through the dense forest. I was completely entranced by the beauty of the lands that I was allowed to explore. I was in awe that this was my pack's land. I had a pack to be a part of. I couldn't wipe the smile off my face as we walked further. The self loathing thoughts from before were completely gone and replaced by light.