Eternal Spring ~Namjin

He is my Solace

Jin's POV

It had been a month since Namjoon and I were engaged, only a few people were aware about it specifically the members, my family, Sejin hyung and PD-Nim. For the first few days I would ask Joonie to pinch me as soon as I woke up in order to convince myself that it wasn't a dream, He would give me his dimpled smile and kiss my cheeks, whispering in my ears "It isn't one, love"

My work as the Nutritionist and Head chef for SBS was going pretty well, everyone was loving my dishes and it was like a first hand experience in terms of my dream restaurant, speaking about which, I was standing in front of the building which would soon be turning into my dream restaurant. I had decided to approach some interior designers for the renovations and re-modelling of the place and my search made me meet Chung min, she wasn't a really famous interior designer, it had only been a few years since she had worked in the field but one look at her works and I could tell she has a bright future. The aesthetics pleased me so much and they were the kind I love so I approached her and today we both are standing in front of the building as she wanted to visit the site.

"The building is beautiful, we can work wonders on it," Chung min spoke breaking me from my reverie.

Yes, it is, I said smiling proudly.

"Well then let's go inside, shall we?" She said.

"Of course," I smiled back at her.

Namjoon's POV

I had been really stressed over the past few months, our new album was releasing in a few weeks and I couldn't help but worry.

Worries of will we be able to meet the expectations of our armies crossed over my mind 24/7 and the only person keeping me sane at this moment was Jin and my members. It had been over a month since our visit to Jeju and Jin and I getting engaged. Life has been beautiful since then, he has been with me and that is more than enough for me to get through tough days ,being my solace, just cuddling him to sleep was all that I needed for my weariness to go away.

As soon as I unlocked the house door, I could smell the fresh aroma of Jin's cooking and an instant smile got plastered on my face the image of a beautiful Jin with his back facing me his brown locks and his melodious singing greeted me as I walked into the kitchen. I quietly sat on the table and stared at his movements when he turned to see me sitting and he was surprised,

"Yahhhh, Namjoon-ahhh how many times have I told you not to do this, someday I will end up getting a heart attack because of you being like this," He spoke with a pout.

I smiled at him staring at his cute face with a tinge of crimson spread all over it and his pouted lips and I thought to myself just how did I get so lucky.

"I can't help it love, the best part of my day is to come back home to you and being greeted with this beautiful sight daily, it just makes me realize how lucky I am to have you," I said with a proud smile as I got up to embrace him.

He hugged me tightly and placed his cheeks on my shoulders as we both slowly swayed and Jin spoke softly "Today I took Chung min to the building she said she will start with the renovations from next week, I am so excited Joonie it's like a dream come true, a few months back I was trying to make ends meet and working hard to save money for that building and today I am only a few days away from it becoming the place I wanted It to be, I wish appa was here with us he would be so happy to see how I am succeeding slowly," as he spoke I could feel my shoulders getting wet and I broke the hug to pull him away from me and cup his cheeks only to be met with tears running down his cheeks.

"Love I am sure Dae hyun-ssi would be so proud of you if he was here today but even if he is physically not here he is always with you and he is seeing all this and he must be beaming with pride to see his Jin succeeding and fulfilling his wishes , Please don't cry it breaks my heart to see you like this," I spoke softly kissing his tear stained cheeks.

He smiled and hugged me back even more tightlyand said "you keep talking about how lucky you have become because you foundme but I am as lucky as you are Joonie, I always felt this deep connection withyou even before I got to know you personally. It seemed as if I felt you in mybones in myself long  before I had even met you, it was like you have always been a part of my heart and soul," he spoke shyly.

I placed my fingers on his chin and lifted his face to make him look into my eyes and spoke "Let me tell you a secret love, I have felt the same for as long as I know. Even before I met you I would see this blurry visions or dreams of a guy whose hands I would hold and we would be walking in this silent street at night but I never saw his face, something in my heart tells me it's you ,I don't know but I can feel it when we are together when we hold hands, when we kiss, when we embrace each other, it is you, I can feel it," I spoke.

"Jin looked at me stupefied and I could not comprehend his expression, I was worried if I had said something that would make him think I was a creep and that is one reason why I had not brought this topic up, Jin? Baby you okay? I am sorry if I said something that bothers you," I said calmly I was freaking out but I had to keep myself calm for Jin.

"J-Joonie, I-I, d-don't," he stuttered.

"Jin you don't need to say anything if it bothers you, I know I speak about crazy things at time, don't think over it, it's not important," I said as I gently rubbed his back.

"No! He sternly said ,Joonie i-I am just s-surprised because I have been getting the same dreams too ever since I was 18 years old, I never told anyone about it because I felt nobody would believe me but today when you spoke about the same thing ,I-I was just taken aback, I didn't even know how to respond," he spoke while breathing heavily.

"Love maybe it is something like Déjà vu , maybe we were meant to be ," I said smiling at him, I too was surprised when Jin said this but I didn't want him to delve further into it because I knew how sensitive he was to such situations and I think today had already been an emotional day for him and I did not want to press further, Let's eat I am hungry.

A few hours later

Jin's POV

Namjoon and I lay on the bed cuddling with each other, he was busy reading a book but I could sense something was bothering him,

I snuggled closer to him and spoke "Joonie tell me"

"Tell you what?" He said looking at me.

"What's bothering you? I know something is off, you can't hide it from me," I kissed his chin.

He kissed me on the lips and spoke "I am just worried about the comeback, I hope we meet the expectations of armies," he sighed.

I placed my palms on both his cheeks and smiled at him "I trust you and the boys completely Joonie, I know you all have worked really hard for this comeback and I am sure all of us will love it. Don't worry baby," I said and bopped his nose.

He bopped my nose back again and said "did you just call me baby?" he smirked at me.

I was flushed crimson when I realized, I had so simply said those words and how easily he had got those words out of my mouth. "Shut up, I punched him lightly in the chest, i think we should sleep now," I was blushing fervently.

"Okay love," he kissed my nose, "let's sleep".

And like every night we both slept cuddling with each other surrounded by the warmth of our love and he being my solace through all the tough days.

A/N: I am sorry for being so inactive and the updates being so irregular but I am trying my best to make this book which moves your heart and is a good read that makes you smile and feel loved. I hope you guys still shower love onto this book.

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