Against the Waves (THE PRESTIGE 1)

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Over the past ten years I never laid my eyes to anyone. I told myself that I will never love again unless I learned how to love myself first. Paano ko ba naman kasi mamahalin ang ibang tao kung pati sarili ko ay hindi ko magawang mahalin ng buo?

Kaya sinabi ko sa sarili ko, magmamahal lang ako kapag buo na ako. I am too focus on my healing before. Now I realized, is it really about my healing? Or I was just busy reconciling myself that it was a healing?

It was all about escape.

I tried so hard to escape everything instead of accepting what happened. When I got discharged from the mental hospital, I called for Him all over again. I cried for His help. I asked for His mercy. He is ready to heal me but I didn't allow Him.

When I thought I was getting better, I turned my back again from Him. Kapag nangangailangan ako, sa Kaniya ako agad tatakbo pero kapag nakuha ko na ang gusto ko, tatalikuran ko na naman siya.

It's been a cycle.

Cycle of pain and temporary peace.

Maybe-maybe things haven't ended yet because I haven't yet surrender everything to Him. I tried again to fix everything through my ways when in fact His ways are better than my ways.

"Ma'am, they are already here."

Sinipat ko ang ulo ni Amelie na nakadungaw sa sliding door ng office ko.

"Tell them to come in," I said then put aside the bouquet.

I don't know what happened but the bouquet delivery never failed to come to me every single day. It's been five months and I think Hayes changed the address of its receiving address.

Kinuha ko ang card na nakaipit sa bulaklak, ngumiti ako ng kaonti bago kinuha ang cellphone ko para i-search ang meaning nito.

2 Timothy 4:17

"But the Lord gave me strength and stood by me," I uttered. I smiled.

Thank you for reminding me, Hayes.

Every card consist of bible verse. Ever since Hayes left, I started to collect these cards and created an album. I think this card will be the 152th card verse I received for the past months. Idadagdag ko ito sa koleksyon ko pagkadating ko sa condo mamaya.

Now, I just want to treasure every little things he did for me.

"Ma'am, Ms. Mendoza is here."

Agaran kong ipinasok ang card sa wallet ko at eleganteng tumayo para salubungin ang isa kong kliyente.

Nilakihan ni Amelie ang pagkakabukas ng pinto at pumasok ang isang magandang babae-A Mendoza. I thought she was with her fiancee?

Mendoza clan is one of the most promising and fast growing company here in the Philippines since they owned the most famous Engineering firm in the country.

I offered her my hand. "Hi, I'm Layana Anais Anonuevo, a floral manager and owner of this shop, Sweet Petals. Nice meeting you."

She gave me a sweet smile before shaking my hand. "Yes, I've heard a lot about you. I'm Serena, it's nice meeting you too."

Pagkatapos magpakilala sa isa't isa ay umupo kami sa isang mahabang sofa. Sa gitna nito ay may bilugang-marmol na lamesa. Nakalatag dito ang mga catalouge ng bulaklak. There's also two black chairs infront of it.

"I finally met you," she said. "I just want to apologize regarding what happened before, Ms. Anonuevo. My fiancee's family had an emergency."

I equaled her energy. She's so kind and jolly. "It's okay, I understand. Our shop is always welcome for you."