Kidnapped, By One Direction

Chapter Twenty Eight: Let's Drag This One To Hell And Back

I sat there, on the couch in a heap, why do I feel this way?

Can't she ever just leave me alone?

I finally find something that make's me happy, and she just has to ruin it, the bitch.

I felt so empty, so gutted.

I hate myself.

Does she find joy in this?

Disgusted.

Disgusting, that's who I am.

I am a disgusting freak, that deserves this.

I can feel myself falling, falling deeper and deeper into the hole that I had dug so long ago.

That deep, dark hole that has all of my thought's of suicide, hurting myself, I wonder if it's true that it actually releases the pain?

*~*Two hour's later*~*

My phone has been going off ever since the interview, but I haven't stopped myself crying and sobbing to pick it up.

The boy's, One Direction, they've been banging on the door, trying to get it open.

They beg for me to let them in, they tried to convince me, but I know I could never let anyone in.

The wall's I've built around me, they shall always stand high and strong, so no one can ever get through or climb over them to see the true me.

My hand's clenched at my shirt, my body was shaking as I sobbed and sobbed.

So pitiful.

Shut up.

She's crying, over something that is just stupid.

You don't understand!

I do. I am you, and your just being a pathetic low-life, who's crying! You should be out there, trying to prove your innocence!

I can't.

You can!

I can't, I can't....

I sobbed harder, I felt myself sink deeper and deeper into the darkness of the corner of my mind, my heart clenched as my thought's became darker and darker.

"I can't do this" I whimpered.

You can..... fight it.

"No" I whimpered.

Fight it.

"I can't!" I said louder.

You can!

"I can't!" I screamed.

I heard the banging stop, they've given up.... at least they understand the situation now. Both side's giving up.

Music, do it.

Listening to the voice, I picked up my ipod and pressed play.

"I never meant to be the one who kept you from the dark
But now I know my wounds are sown because of who you are
I will take this burden on and become the holy one
But remember I am human and I'm bound to sing this song

So hear my voice,
Reminds you not to bleed
I am here

Saviour! Will be there
When you are feeling alone, ohhh
A saviour, for all that you do
So you live freely without their harm

So here I write my lullaby, to all the lonely ones
Remember as you learn to try to be the one you love
So I can take this pen and teach you how to live
But what is left unsaid, the greatest gift I give"